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Feels SO Good To Finally Let Go
15 years ago
Get your mind out of the gutter. Not THAT kinda "letting go". Tho given my last journal, guess I can't hold it against people if their minds go there. XD
Anyhoo...
http://synwolfjournal.blogspot.com/.....en-letter.html
*dusts off the Caps Lock key and reattaches it to her keyboard*
THE ABOVE LINK LEADS TO A BLOG ABOUT OLD DRAMA. IF THAT'S NOT YOUR CUP OF TEA, DON'T READ IT AND THEN COME BITCH AT ME. THAT'S THE FASTEST AND EASIEST WAY TO END UP ON MY BLOCK LIST. CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED.
*pulls off the Caps Lock key off her keyboard and puts it away again*
With that now out of the way ... This blog has been a loooong time comin'. A lot of sitting on my hands, a lot of self-restraint, and a LOT of patience ... and for a time, I actually thought this blog would never get written, but given what's happened with Allan recently, and remembering that it was Allan drama that caused the falling out with the person the blog is about in the FIRST place ... a lot of angry thoughts and hurt feelings came back up to the surface.
I have a strong suspicion that sometime, someplace, he's going to try and rub this under the collective nose of WYS, so ... *sigh* wanted to purge all these feelings out before that had the chance to come to pass. I was afraid that if something HAD happened before I did, the overflow would have caused me to be less capable of wording all this with any semblance of civility. And I didn't want it to read like a psychotic shrieking rant.
TL;DR - Here thar be drama. Don't click the link if drama blogs/journals make you rage.
Anyhoo...
http://synwolfjournal.blogspot.com/.....en-letter.html
*dusts off the Caps Lock key and reattaches it to her keyboard*
THE ABOVE LINK LEADS TO A BLOG ABOUT OLD DRAMA. IF THAT'S NOT YOUR CUP OF TEA, DON'T READ IT AND THEN COME BITCH AT ME. THAT'S THE FASTEST AND EASIEST WAY TO END UP ON MY BLOCK LIST. CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED.
*pulls off the Caps Lock key off her keyboard and puts it away again*
With that now out of the way ... This blog has been a loooong time comin'. A lot of sitting on my hands, a lot of self-restraint, and a LOT of patience ... and for a time, I actually thought this blog would never get written, but given what's happened with Allan recently, and remembering that it was Allan drama that caused the falling out with the person the blog is about in the FIRST place ... a lot of angry thoughts and hurt feelings came back up to the surface.
I have a strong suspicion that sometime, someplace, he's going to try and rub this under the collective nose of WYS, so ... *sigh* wanted to purge all these feelings out before that had the chance to come to pass. I was afraid that if something HAD happened before I did, the overflow would have caused me to be less capable of wording all this with any semblance of civility. And I didn't want it to read like a psychotic shrieking rant.
TL;DR - Here thar be drama. Don't click the link if drama blogs/journals make you rage.
That was really powerful. I wasn't aware of all that happened and such but I'm really sorry that you went through that experience.
Just..wow.
Good for you for letting your feelings be known, And it doesn't sound like a rant at all.
Thank you for assuring me I wasn't sounding ranty. I also worried it might come off as seeming too ... "preachy" or that I might have made it sound like I was trying to put on airs, but ... that guy made me feel like a prisoner in my own skin for a LONG damn time. And I'm STILL picking up the pieces and trying to move forward. It was ... empowering ... to finally purge all those foul feelings and allow myself the chance to fully recover someday.
The experience--both the argument AND the WYS incident--I had with him is something I honestly could not bring myself to wish on even my very WORST of enemies. Not even HIM. He may THINK he has endured what I have but no ... he REALLY, really hasn't. He's very good at PRETENDING to be the victim but that's about it. If someone every did to him what he's done to me, I would truthfully feel EXTREME pity for him. It was as humbling as it was painful.
*hugs* Well, it's unfortunate that he'll likely never stop being mad, because, I mean, this is him of all people we're talkin' about here. He apparently has NOTHING better to do with his life than be mad at people on the internet, as completely evidenced by his hovering around forums, *chans, and etc, for HOURS on end waiting for people to say something, ANYTHING about him.
Meanwhile, you, I, and many others, do productive things throughout our day-to-day lives.
What does Sniff do? Rage like a little bitch just 'cause someone called him a doodoo head on the internet.
In all honesty? If I didn't loathe him so much, I'd feel sorry for him. =/
I may not have a job yet myself due to the economy being really bad down here, AND the fact that I'm kind of still in a developing area, but at least I do something productive every day. Either I do some work on my writing, or I clean around the house, even!
It's honestly just SAD how he hovers around forums and the like waiting for people to say something about him. :/ I'm not even that obsessive about video games. >.>;
I'm willing to bet that all Sniff EVER does is be on the internet and get mad. Hence why he has to roommate with people just to get by and apply for financial government assistance--too unable or too unwilling to make anything of himself.
Right... The HELL on! That was just; there... there are no words to properly describe how much authoritative arse that blog handed out... I had no idea he had become such an infatuated and infantile stalker.
You said it all so clearly; and that gave it much more voice and sheer moving power to me... All while maintaining a strong level of maturity. No rage from me, Syn; I'm totally behind you another 167% on toppa my other hundred and some ^^
SniffHeiney really needs to just... <pauses; feeling a rant coming on> Actually; I'll be a bit more mature and let that one go ^^
But good for you. He doesn't deserve the effort.
Somehow I think I'm glad I missed out on all this crapo.
And Allan, we'll ... *sigh* you read my feelings on THAT in his WYS thread. I'm still pretty fucking pissed about the whole shit. >_<;;
But yeah he's even tried talking to me a bit on Yahoo and I'm just being blunt with him as usual. He still doesn't really seem to be able to take it because he'll continue to stop talking for a while. ^^;
Getting these things out in such a well articulated manner can be the best cure to the disease for some.
That's one thing I always pride myself upon. Even if I'm belligerent, even if I'm rude, and hell, even if I'm WRONG (I know; hard to believe, but that ACTUALLY happens sometimes ^_~) ... I try my best to express myself as clearly and concisely as possible. Not out of a sense of superiority or ego or anything, but merely because it's the only way I feel right conducting myself.
And yes, this little "exercise" helped QUITE a lot in my recovery. =3
Sniff was against us encouraging him to improve and be optimistic, and that's what set off the drama that ran him off FA. But as I said in the blog, he's been doing me great harm LONG before the incident with WYS a few months ago. =/
Thankfully, it's been a long time since he's tried to target me personally and I assume that's because being contacted by the authorities scared him into silence, when he realized antagonizing me further could land him in legal hot water. But you'll see all of that once you get the chance to read through it completely. ^_^
*hugs* Don't gotta worry about me, Moosie. Scared as I was at the time, if it had come to the worst, I was fully capable and ready to protect myself, my animals, and my family. =3
I kid :D
*nosebumps*
Glad your getting this off your chest