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Posted 18 years agoDamnit, I am fucking SICK of Christmas. And what is it, November 6th? Christmas is more than a month and a half away. Every store in town had Christmas decorations for sale a month ago, in the middle of October. Pre-decorated trees and snowmen right next to the inflatable jack-o-lanterns and ghosts. How did this happen? Wasn't there some kind of unwritten rule that corporate America wouldn't start assaulting our sensibilities until after Thanksgiving? As soon as November 1st rolled around, the blitzkrieg started in full. Commercials went from a subdued fall theme to WHITE AND HAPPY! The advertising women with the fake smiles went from wearing orange sweaters and tossing dead leaves in the air to wearing red coats and playing in the snow.
So why so early this year? I'm guessing it has something to do with rock-bottom consumer confidence and the fact that every toy on the planet is MADE OUT OF POISON. Except instead of maybe doing something about it and improving public relations, companies are like "HAHA! Noooo, there's NOTHING WRONG! Hey, LOOK BEHIND YOU! Christmas is coming! BETTER BUY THOSE FUCKING TOYS!"
It's just ... all so depressing. Fake chemical cheer is oozing forth from every crevice in the earth, trying desperately to cover the fact that we're surrounded by endless tragedy.
So why so early this year? I'm guessing it has something to do with rock-bottom consumer confidence and the fact that every toy on the planet is MADE OUT OF POISON. Except instead of maybe doing something about it and improving public relations, companies are like "HAHA! Noooo, there's NOTHING WRONG! Hey, LOOK BEHIND YOU! Christmas is coming! BETTER BUY THOSE FUCKING TOYS!"
It's just ... all so depressing. Fake chemical cheer is oozing forth from every crevice in the earth, trying desperately to cover the fact that we're surrounded by endless tragedy.
Aperture Science
Posted 18 years agoPORTALPORTALPORTALPORTALPORTAL
Ok ok. Wow. Ok. Uhm. So I was two weeks slow getting The Orange Box! Apparently roughly 89% of the earth's population bought it within five hours, and as a result avoiding hideous, HIDEOUS spoilers was a difficult proposition, but I managed for the most part. That said, if you haven't played it yet, you may want to LOOK AWAY.
Anyway, (this cake is great! it's so delicious and moist!) am I the only one who didn't empathize with the weighted companion cube? Am I just a CRUEL AND HORRIBLE MONSTER for tossing it without a second thought, before GlaDOS even stopped talking? Really, I empathized more with GlaDOS herself. That sexy, modulated voice ... that innocent, yet sardonic attitude ... mmmm ... and I mean, come on! If you were being slowed down by weak, inefficient flesh sacks, wouldn't you have done the same thing? There was SCIENCE to be done, after all!
I didn't really find it funny the first time around. I was probably tainted by the previously mentioned 89% saying things like "LOL" and "I say! How positively delightful!", but I actually found it more frightening and paranoia-inducing. Especially the first time the facade of the laboratory starts to crack, and you realize you weren't the first person to be forced through this rat maze. The cuteness of the gun turrets only added to the terror. I didn't really truly appreciate the game for what it was until the second time through with director commentary. I suppose watching the credits helped.
But GOD. What a game. Need to play episodes 1 and 2 now ... I hear there are references to Aperture Labs in episode 2 ... I hope GlaDOS is doing ok!
Ok ok. Wow. Ok. Uhm. So I was two weeks slow getting The Orange Box! Apparently roughly 89% of the earth's population bought it within five hours, and as a result avoiding hideous, HIDEOUS spoilers was a difficult proposition, but I managed for the most part. That said, if you haven't played it yet, you may want to LOOK AWAY.
**************************Anyway, (this cake is great! it's so delicious and moist!) am I the only one who didn't empathize with the weighted companion cube? Am I just a CRUEL AND HORRIBLE MONSTER for tossing it without a second thought, before GlaDOS even stopped talking? Really, I empathized more with GlaDOS herself. That sexy, modulated voice ... that innocent, yet sardonic attitude ... mmmm ... and I mean, come on! If you were being slowed down by weak, inefficient flesh sacks, wouldn't you have done the same thing? There was SCIENCE to be done, after all!
I didn't really find it funny the first time around. I was probably tainted by the previously mentioned 89% saying things like "LOL" and "I say! How positively delightful!", but I actually found it more frightening and paranoia-inducing. Especially the first time the facade of the laboratory starts to crack, and you realize you weren't the first person to be forced through this rat maze. The cuteness of the gun turrets only added to the terror. I didn't really truly appreciate the game for what it was until the second time through with director commentary. I suppose watching the credits helped.
But GOD. What a game. Need to play episodes 1 and 2 now ... I hear there are references to Aperture Labs in episode 2 ... I hope GlaDOS is doing ok!
**************************FUCK!
Posted 18 years agoSo goddamn lazy can't bring myself to do anything hell even playing a videogame would be an accomplishment goddamnit.
I was taking a shower today, when for no particular reason, it suddenly occurred to me how weird school was back in 2nd grade. I always considered it normal, but there was some weird mystical new-age teaching bullshit going on. There was like, four classes in this one hypercube-shaped room, and we rotated around for different assignments, like some kind of proto highschool thing. There was a "reading pit" in the center of the room that connected the four areas, and above that was a little are where we sometimes watched EDUTASTIC laserdisc movies.
Anyway! I hated it. In theory, it was awesome. There were art classes, creative writing classes, scavenger hunts, robots, all kinds of weird metaphysical shit. But the two teachers I can recall were extremely anal and oldschool. My primary teacher would tell us to sit down and shut up while she quietly read us a story, while all the other classes in the pod were having shouting parties or something. Most of my memories of 2nd grade involve me sitting quietly at my desk, doing something stupid like measuring a clay snake while the other classes were bouncing off the ceiling.
One event that really sticks out in my mind was the creative writing class. I think we had this once a week, and my class rotated to another teacher for it. He was a tall, lanky dude with a beard, and was surprisingly strict for looking like stereotypical personification of the '60s. Normally, we were encouraged to write whatever we wanted, and the illustrate it with our crude, childish drawings. But during the first class, he decided we couldn't handle that, so instead he told us to write about a unicorn. Now see, I was looking FORWARD to this class, to writing about whatever the hell I wanted, so I was crushed when I discovered I had strict limits. So I said FUCK THIS and instead wrote a story about a whale who got sucked down a drain in the bottom of the ocean and ended up in a municipal pool. I was severely chastised for this grave offense, and had to have an after-school conference with my primary teacher about the importance of following orders from authority figures.
Why do I mention this? I dunno. I needed to write something.
I was taking a shower today, when for no particular reason, it suddenly occurred to me how weird school was back in 2nd grade. I always considered it normal, but there was some weird mystical new-age teaching bullshit going on. There was like, four classes in this one hypercube-shaped room, and we rotated around for different assignments, like some kind of proto highschool thing. There was a "reading pit" in the center of the room that connected the four areas, and above that was a little are where we sometimes watched EDUTASTIC laserdisc movies.
Anyway! I hated it. In theory, it was awesome. There were art classes, creative writing classes, scavenger hunts, robots, all kinds of weird metaphysical shit. But the two teachers I can recall were extremely anal and oldschool. My primary teacher would tell us to sit down and shut up while she quietly read us a story, while all the other classes in the pod were having shouting parties or something. Most of my memories of 2nd grade involve me sitting quietly at my desk, doing something stupid like measuring a clay snake while the other classes were bouncing off the ceiling.
One event that really sticks out in my mind was the creative writing class. I think we had this once a week, and my class rotated to another teacher for it. He was a tall, lanky dude with a beard, and was surprisingly strict for looking like stereotypical personification of the '60s. Normally, we were encouraged to write whatever we wanted, and the illustrate it with our crude, childish drawings. But during the first class, he decided we couldn't handle that, so instead he told us to write about a unicorn. Now see, I was looking FORWARD to this class, to writing about whatever the hell I wanted, so I was crushed when I discovered I had strict limits. So I said FUCK THIS and instead wrote a story about a whale who got sucked down a drain in the bottom of the ocean and ended up in a municipal pool. I was severely chastised for this grave offense, and had to have an after-school conference with my primary teacher about the importance of following orders from authority figures.
Why do I mention this? I dunno. I needed to write something.
Oh.
Posted 18 years agoExplosions and gunshots outside my window.
How positively delightful!
How positively delightful!
I bought a Slinky today.
Posted 18 years agoI also seriously considered buying a few Lego sets, and maybe some action figures.
I think I'm having a mid-midlife crisis.
Slink, slink, slink ...
I think I'm having a mid-midlife crisis.
Slink, slink, slink ...
YES!!
Posted 18 years agoGodamnit
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I'm gonna go sleep for a few days.
grbl
Also
My bar tab is something like $30, plus $500 for answering honestly. I'm a godamn fucking SAINT. D=<
I'm gonna go sleep for a few days.
grbl
Also
My bar tab is something like $30, plus $500 for answering honestly. I'm a godamn fucking SAINT. D=<
ARRGH, I suck
Posted 18 years agoMan, I knew this would happen. Got a trade and three commissions left, and I've run out of steam. At least only one of them's paid. Gotta work gotta work gotta work ...
What the hell happened to easy PC gaming?
Posted 18 years agoWasn't DirectX supposed to make gaming EASIER? Y'know, not having to set up your sound card, knowing your DirectX hardware would work with your DirectX software ... so what the hell happened, huh? Why do I suddenly have issues with games made in the past three years? Games in which I clearly meet the recommended hardware requirements?
Blue screens of death? BLUE SCREENS of DEATH? Weren't we supposed to stop having shit like this when Windows 98 became obsolete? Oh! It's a problem with my video driver! Guess I'll update to the newest version! Except I won't, because my Nvidia card was put together by BLIND ASSCLOWNS. New version of Forceware? Oh, that would be nice! Except I'll CRASH AND BURN if I install it! Guess I'll stick with this ancient driver from a year ago that MOSTLY works!
And oh, look! This game over here has shitty sound! Stuttering, big chunks of audio vanishing into the mist ... update my drivers, you say? OK! Wow, that feels better. Except, y'know, for the fact that it DIDN'T DO A FUCKING THING.
Ah! And NOW it gets fun! Nobody knows why these things don't work! We're supposed to have this nice happy unified video/sound thing going on! The most concrete answer I get is "maybe it's something with your motherboard." Well GOLLY! Thanks a buttload, Fibber McGee! I'll have this thing licked in no time! Maybe I need a new BIOS! Perhaps an updated chipset driver! Nobody really knows. Oh, sure, I've updated my chipset drivers. Didn't do anything, of course. But the BIOS! Ahhh, yes. That's the answer to EVERYTHING. That's what every troubleshooting forum I've been to says, anyway. But how to do it? Nobody knows! Not even my motherboard manufacturer knows! They tell me to go to the company that built my computer! But the BIOS download there is older than the computer itself! Then I'm told that such an operation is INCREDIBLY DANGEROUS, and that I should only do it "if I need to".
Look, I'm probably just a fucking moron, but that doesn't even BEGIN to seem "easy". Shit, give me the days when I had to setup my sound card manually.
Blue screens of death? BLUE SCREENS of DEATH? Weren't we supposed to stop having shit like this when Windows 98 became obsolete? Oh! It's a problem with my video driver! Guess I'll update to the newest version! Except I won't, because my Nvidia card was put together by BLIND ASSCLOWNS. New version of Forceware? Oh, that would be nice! Except I'll CRASH AND BURN if I install it! Guess I'll stick with this ancient driver from a year ago that MOSTLY works!
And oh, look! This game over here has shitty sound! Stuttering, big chunks of audio vanishing into the mist ... update my drivers, you say? OK! Wow, that feels better. Except, y'know, for the fact that it DIDN'T DO A FUCKING THING.
Ah! And NOW it gets fun! Nobody knows why these things don't work! We're supposed to have this nice happy unified video/sound thing going on! The most concrete answer I get is "maybe it's something with your motherboard." Well GOLLY! Thanks a buttload, Fibber McGee! I'll have this thing licked in no time! Maybe I need a new BIOS! Perhaps an updated chipset driver! Nobody really knows. Oh, sure, I've updated my chipset drivers. Didn't do anything, of course. But the BIOS! Ahhh, yes. That's the answer to EVERYTHING. That's what every troubleshooting forum I've been to says, anyway. But how to do it? Nobody knows! Not even my motherboard manufacturer knows! They tell me to go to the company that built my computer! But the BIOS download there is older than the computer itself! Then I'm told that such an operation is INCREDIBLY DANGEROUS, and that I should only do it "if I need to".
Look, I'm probably just a fucking moron, but that doesn't even BEGIN to seem "easy". Shit, give me the days when I had to setup my sound card manually.
Oh dear god.
Posted 18 years agoSo sometimes I get songs stuck in my head, right? I mean, sure, we all do. Sometimes I'll have a spiteful little ditty in my brain for days at a time. Sometimes even years! Sometimes ... even DECADES.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=cMH1mcNFqRY
If the date on this is correct, then I've had this song stuck in my head for 19 years. It's the OMEGA SONG. I use it to push newer, less worthy songs from my head. I didn't even know where it came from. Then suddenly, a few minutes ago, a word came to mind: Hi-C. And it all became terrifyingly clear. A quick search on Youtube confirmed my fears! THIS ... this commercial ... has been driving me insane for the better part of two decades.
For some of us, Hi-C isn't a cheap boxed fruit drink with dubious nutritional value; no, for some of us, Hi-C is a nameless terror that drives fear through our very hearts! Some of us can't let go! Some of us can't forget, reliving the horror in our minds every day for the rest of our lives!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=cMH1mcNFqRY
If the date on this is correct, then I've had this song stuck in my head for 19 years. It's the OMEGA SONG. I use it to push newer, less worthy songs from my head. I didn't even know where it came from. Then suddenly, a few minutes ago, a word came to mind: Hi-C. And it all became terrifyingly clear. A quick search on Youtube confirmed my fears! THIS ... this commercial ... has been driving me insane for the better part of two decades.
For some of us, Hi-C isn't a cheap boxed fruit drink with dubious nutritional value; no, for some of us, Hi-C is a nameless terror that drives fear through our very hearts! Some of us can't let go! Some of us can't forget, reliving the horror in our minds every day for the rest of our lives!
Commission Trial Run
Posted 18 years agoIs it just me, or is every other journal entry about commissions? Did I just not notice until now, or is it a new development?
Anyway. I'm feeling risky today, so I'm gonna jump headfirst into this and then regret it after the fact. And by "jump headfirst" I mean "test the waters". Whatever! Stop looking at me!
To make sure I'm actually capable of doing this, I'm opening up five commission slots. These will be digital sketches and are priced at (what I hope is a relatively low) $5 USD apiece, payable via PayPal.
1. QuetzaDrake
2. Darkie
3. EraDragon
4. Spottycat
5. Dier
Here are some pictures I've done that should give you an idea of the quality I'm talking about here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/371709/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/173046/
I'm open to quite a few subject matters. Nothing too complex though, please. This is my first time doing this, so go easy on me. And as I said, I can only accept payments through PayPal.
... Actually, I just signed up at PayPal today. If anyone can give me some tips on how to use it effectively, I'd greatly appreciate it.
My E-mail address is zombiecat@gmail.com, if you have any questions or need to send a payment, or ... whatever.
Anyway. I'm feeling risky today, so I'm gonna jump headfirst into this and then regret it after the fact. And by "jump headfirst" I mean "test the waters". Whatever! Stop looking at me!
To make sure I'm actually capable of doing this, I'm opening up five commission slots. These will be digital sketches and are priced at (what I hope is a relatively low) $5 USD apiece, payable via PayPal.
1. QuetzaDrake
2. Darkie
3. EraDragon
4. Spottycat
5. Dier
Here are some pictures I've done that should give you an idea of the quality I'm talking about here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/371709/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/173046/
I'm open to quite a few subject matters. Nothing too complex though, please. This is my first time doing this, so go easy on me. And as I said, I can only accept payments through PayPal.
... Actually, I just signed up at PayPal today. If anyone can give me some tips on how to use it effectively, I'd greatly appreciate it.
My E-mail address is zombiecat@gmail.com, if you have any questions or need to send a payment, or ... whatever.
FGglargfrg
Posted 18 years agoGood lord, it's been hot this past week. The kind of heat that permeates your very soul and lingers through the night. The kind where you just lay there at night, no sheets, a fan blowing on you, and sweat dripping from every pore. So yeah, I didn't sleep much. I don't cope well with high temperatures. So I've been in a daze. Just kind of ... existing.
Anyway. It's cooler now, and my brain came back.
I've ... almost been considering taking commissions. I could use the money. But how would I explain where I got it?
"Oh, yeah, I've been taking commissions. Drawing people's, uh, characters. Like ... cartoons. you know."
"Oh, really? Can I see?"
".... No."
Anyway. It's cooler now, and my brain came back.
I've ... almost been considering taking commissions. I could use the money. But how would I explain where I got it?
"Oh, yeah, I've been taking commissions. Drawing people's, uh, characters. Like ... cartoons. you know."
"Oh, really? Can I see?"
".... No."
Xfire and other shit
Posted 18 years agoMalaka talked me into getting an Xfire profile. It has potential for awesome. And right now I'm pondering the wisdom out said profile in a public area such as this, lest I be swamped in idle chatter. I'll sleep on it.
I've been in a total funk lately. Mentally and physically. Which is weird, because I've been going to a gym, and working out usually perks me up. Now it just beats me into submission. I come home and lie down and never get up.
Hey, ever get those dreams? The kind where you do normal, everyday stuff? And then you wake up and think about it later and can't remember if your memories are real or imagined? Yeah, I do that a lot. It's fun.
I think I have pending trades. Yes, I'm sure of it. I should probably do something about that.
It's like really fucking hot outside. It's 1 AM and still hot enough to trigger the AC. This is unacceptable, gentlemen.
I've been in a total funk lately. Mentally and physically. Which is weird, because I've been going to a gym, and working out usually perks me up. Now it just beats me into submission. I come home and lie down and never get up.
Hey, ever get those dreams? The kind where you do normal, everyday stuff? And then you wake up and think about it later and can't remember if your memories are real or imagined? Yeah, I do that a lot. It's fun.
I think I have pending trades. Yes, I'm sure of it. I should probably do something about that.
It's like really fucking hot outside. It's 1 AM and still hot enough to trigger the AC. This is unacceptable, gentlemen.
OOPS! My bad!
Posted 18 years agohttp://www.next-gen.biz/index.php?o.....3&Itemid=2
And this, children, is why we shouldn't rush to conclusions. Do as I say, not as I do!
And this, children, is why we shouldn't rush to conclusions. Do as I say, not as I do!
I has a icon!
Posted 18 years ago
ailure made me a new avatar! I think it captures my swarthy, rugged side, don't you?RARRGH!!!
Posted 18 years agoJaap Van Ballegooijen has a bit of a problem. What is it? He works for Shell!! Jesus fucking christ, am I the only one about to kill someone if I have to see this ad again? Lemme see if I have this straight ... This poor fool came up with a way to suck the planet dry of oil in a more efficient manner. HURRAY! Now we don't HAVE to come up with alternative energy sources! Fuck hydrogen! We have SLIGHTLY MORE OIL! But Shell couldn't keep this little morsel to themselves, no they couldn't! MEDIA BLITZ TIME! Every commercial break, we get to see a TANTALIZING GLIMPSE of their tepid little short film about Jaap Van McGoofyname and his noble quest! Oh joy, I can HARDLY WAIT to see the entire thing!! Especially since they sent me a fucking CD-ROM with his horrifyingly contemplative face on it! And hey, even Discover magazine is getting into the act! GEE WHIZ! If I'm quick, I can be the FIRST TO SEE IT when it makes its RED CARPET DEBUT on June 23rd!! I can hardly wait for Shell to boast about HOW MUCH MONEY THEY'RE MAKING!
It'll be FUCKING AWESOME!!
It'll be FUCKING AWESOME!!
... Wait! That's IT!
Posted 18 years agoThis morning I was wondering why I can never keep a schedule, or stay on any kind of plan to improve my life in any way. I tried keeping a personal journal back in January. That lasted a couple months. Now I completely forget I even have it for weeks at a time. I tried keeping track of what I eat, and excersizing a few times a week. And it worked! I felt great! Until I FORGOT. I had a bookmark to a site with figure anatomy lessons in Youtube format. I diligently went through them one-by-one, picking up valuable tips. Until I FORGOT. By the time I remembered the place existed, the Youtube videos were taken down in favor of a mail-order DVD set. I can't even be bothered to read the godamn comics in the morning! I just can't form ANY kind of habit that involves thinking!
And that's when I realized! I don't THINK anymore!! I'm operating entirely on instinct and experience! Occasionally an outside stimulus will awake within me a desire to LEARN, but it always dies out!
Has it really come to this? Has it been so long since high school that my mind has become a weak slurry? I've lost my curiosity! My drive to learn! It's not just my furry scrawlings that are in a rut! My entire being is stuck in an infinite loop! Every attempt to break free results in failure! What do I do?!
And that's when I realized! I don't THINK anymore!! I'm operating entirely on instinct and experience! Occasionally an outside stimulus will awake within me a desire to LEARN, but it always dies out!
Has it really come to this? Has it been so long since high school that my mind has become a weak slurry? I've lost my curiosity! My drive to learn! It's not just my furry scrawlings that are in a rut! My entire being is stuck in an infinite loop! Every attempt to break free results in failure! What do I do?!
Aaaaah, why do I do this to myself?
Posted 18 years agoWhat did I do? I bought Half-Life 2 (hey, that rhymed) and Garry's Mod! I've doomed myself to an indeterminate amount of idleness! Doomed, I say!
Hey, anyone here use GMod? Show me your builds/weird comics/random shit! I MUST KNOW EVERYTHING!!
Also, went golfing with my dad today. My back is threatening to go out. DOOM! It's TWINGING. Hey, that's a word! And it even sort of means what I thought it did!
Hey, anyone here use GMod? Show me your builds/weird comics/random shit! I MUST KNOW EVERYTHING!!
Also, went golfing with my dad today. My back is threatening to go out. DOOM! It's TWINGING. Hey, that's a word! And it even sort of means what I thought it did!
... The hell?
Posted 18 years agoWhat's with all the camwhoring? Did I miss a memo?
ALSO: I finally found a (working) ROM of Metroid 2! I used to subscribe to Nintendo Power when I was a kid, and I remember seeing a guide to it in one of my first issues. It released in me a nameless dread. Seriously, I was deathly afraid of metroids, and the thought of having to fight them throughout the ENTIRE GAME was a terrifying thought.
TURNS OUT I WAS RIGHT! Metroid 2 scares me. Although, actually, I'm doing pretty well. Just got the varia suit, space jump and spazer beam. 23 metroids left. But it frightens me. The rambling music, the dreary greyscale graphics, the inability to see more than 10 feet in front of you, the lack of a map, and the METROIDS. Everywhere, METROIDS!!
So yeah! It's fun, in a "nameless terror" kind of way.
ALSO: I finally found a (working) ROM of Metroid 2! I used to subscribe to Nintendo Power when I was a kid, and I remember seeing a guide to it in one of my first issues. It released in me a nameless dread. Seriously, I was deathly afraid of metroids, and the thought of having to fight them throughout the ENTIRE GAME was a terrifying thought.
TURNS OUT I WAS RIGHT! Metroid 2 scares me. Although, actually, I'm doing pretty well. Just got the varia suit, space jump and spazer beam. 23 metroids left. But it frightens me. The rambling music, the dreary greyscale graphics, the inability to see more than 10 feet in front of you, the lack of a map, and the METROIDS. Everywhere, METROIDS!!
So yeah! It's fun, in a "nameless terror" kind of way.
AT LAST!
Posted 18 years agoI've been on a Metroid kick recently for some reason. Actually ... Hell, I guess I've only been at it since yesterday afternoon. I started a new game of Super Metroid and got all the way to Tourian in a few hours. But I've beaten it a hundred times before, so I loaded up the original Metroid afterwards. I'd forgotten how fun and infuriatingly frustrating it could be. Well, only frustrating if you DIE, and spend the next three hours refilling your energy tanks. I had the benefit of a map, so I was able to get the screw attack early on. Should've spent more time exploring, I guess, but I was never any good at making paper maps. Anyway! I got to Tourian last night, and beat it today. I've never beaten Metroid before! I even got the good ending. Man, that'd be awesome if you could play as a suitless Samus in Super Metroid too after you beat the game ... Hey, do any of the newer Metroid games let you do that? I think Super Metroid was the last one I ever played, hahaha. Never owned a Gamecube or a GBA.
Hey, is it just me, or are old NES games deceptively difficult? I mean, they can be wickedly hard compared to games today, but once you get the hang of them, they're pretty easy. I've beaten Super Mario Bros., both the first and second quests in Zelda, Contra and Super C (WITHOUT the Konami code), and now Metroid, when years ago I had thought them impossible. Granted, I sometimes use save states, but only to save my progress, not as insurance before a difficult area. Maybe I'll try Metal Gear next. Never could get past the first few screens ...
Uhm uhm uhm. What else? Need to draw. Draw draw draw. But WHAT? I draw rabbits when I can think of nothing else. NOBODY KNOWS WHY.
Hey, is it just me, or are old NES games deceptively difficult? I mean, they can be wickedly hard compared to games today, but once you get the hang of them, they're pretty easy. I've beaten Super Mario Bros., both the first and second quests in Zelda, Contra and Super C (WITHOUT the Konami code), and now Metroid, when years ago I had thought them impossible. Granted, I sometimes use save states, but only to save my progress, not as insurance before a difficult area. Maybe I'll try Metal Gear next. Never could get past the first few screens ...
Uhm uhm uhm. What else? Need to draw. Draw draw draw. But WHAT? I draw rabbits when I can think of nothing else. NOBODY KNOWS WHY.
AHA! Loners are vindicated!
Posted 18 years agohttp://www.psychologytoday.com/arti.....20-000001.html
YES! Now I can point to this next time I'm ostracized for not being happy while I drown in a dense sea of humanity.
YES! Now I can point to this next time I'm ostracized for not being happy while I drown in a dense sea of humanity.
Guys ... I, uhm ...
Posted 18 years agoI've been thinking ... and talking to several other artists who feel the same way, and ... I'm just not enjoying myself here anymore. It was great when the requests I was getting happened to coincide with what I wanted to draw, but that's not the case anymore. Now I've got a huge backlog of pictures I just don't want to draw. I feel like my creativity and skills have fallen in the past year because I'm trying to cater to everyone here. Back when I wasn't getting comments and requests, I just drew for myself, and ... I was happier. But I can't seem to really draw for myself anymore. Every time I start a sketch, I get this wave of guilt that I should be working on something more important. It's drained me. And as a result I've stayed offline for the most part. I can't seem to deal with talking to anyone other than a few close friends.
So ... from this point on, and until I feel otherwise, all pending requests are on hold indefinitely. Pending art trades will still be finished, but I can't say when.
I'm sorry to have to do this, but I draw mostly for my own enjoyment. I no longer have any incentive.
So ... from this point on, and until I feel otherwise, all pending requests are on hold indefinitely. Pending art trades will still be finished, but I can't say when.
I'm sorry to have to do this, but I draw mostly for my own enjoyment. I no longer have any incentive.
Stupid BIRDS!!
Posted 18 years agoThere's this insane woodpecker who thinks our house is his own personal little tree, so he goes and slams his head against it, EVERY MORNING AT THE ASS-CRACK OF DAWN, right outside my room. Whoever happens to be up at the time usually runs out and sprays him with the hose everytime he does it, but so far all that's done is make him finicky and neurotic, flying away at the slightest noise. Makes him easier to get rid of, but that doesn't change the fact that there are TWO GAPING HOLES in the side of the house that are continually getting bigger.
It's not like there are a lack of trees around here! We're surrounded by trees! INUNDATED by them! Trees of every shape and size, encroaching from every angle! Does he just like eating PAINT? Because I see no reason how our house is any better than the dozens of trees that surround it!
There are also a buttload of moles tearing up the yard, but they don't make any noise, so they're ok.
I just want to SLEEP! *sob*
It's not like there are a lack of trees around here! We're surrounded by trees! INUNDATED by them! Trees of every shape and size, encroaching from every angle! Does he just like eating PAINT? Because I see no reason how our house is any better than the dozens of trees that surround it!
There are also a buttload of moles tearing up the yard, but they don't make any noise, so they're ok.
I just want to SLEEP! *sob*
SO TIRED.
Posted 18 years agoWow. Went from like ... not doing anything for months to finishing three requests in one night. I still haven't recovered. My mind is still blank. Maybe sleep for a few days. Glrbrl.
Oh, heheh ... found this ... http://www.adobe.com/misc//trade.html#photoshop ... what the hell is that all about? They're not satisfied that their flagship product is a household name? They're all "NEIN! The UberImageEditor must be addressed as Adobe© Photoshop©! TRADEMARKS ARE NOT VERBS! So sayeth the thought police!" .... or maybe I'm just tired and irritable. Whatever.
Oh, heheh ... found this ... http://www.adobe.com/misc//trade.html#photoshop ... what the hell is that all about? They're not satisfied that their flagship product is a household name? They're all "NEIN! The UberImageEditor must be addressed as Adobe© Photoshop©! TRADEMARKS ARE NOT VERBS! So sayeth the thought police!" .... or maybe I'm just tired and irritable. Whatever.
I miss Linux.
Posted 18 years agoSo, I'm hearing all this stuff about how PhoenixBIOS has some kind of deal with Microsoft, in that computers with PhoenixBIOS-based motherboards will only load Microsoft-based OS's. Is this new? Because my old jury-rigged Compaq here uses a Phoenix BIOS and it just totally spazzes out if I try to install any kind of Linux distro. It'll get as far as unpacking the kernel, then ZAP, instant reboot.
I've probably brought this up a dozen times, but DAMNIT, I really liked Linux. I had Mandrake installed on my old PC before it finally gave up the ghost. I'd like to put Ubuntu on my backup partition here and turn it into a dual-boot. Five gigabytes, should be plenty for a small package.
I don't even know why I'm writing this here. I'm tired and half-dead, but I need to write something. SOMEWHERE!
Also, I just tore a big chunk of skin off my left thumb. It kinda hurts.
Oops, now my shirt has blood all over it. WHAT HAVE I DONE?
I've probably brought this up a dozen times, but DAMNIT, I really liked Linux. I had Mandrake installed on my old PC before it finally gave up the ghost. I'd like to put Ubuntu on my backup partition here and turn it into a dual-boot. Five gigabytes, should be plenty for a small package.
I don't even know why I'm writing this here. I'm tired and half-dead, but I need to write something. SOMEWHERE!
Also, I just tore a big chunk of skin off my left thumb. It kinda hurts.
Oops, now my shirt has blood all over it. WHAT HAVE I DONE?
