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Confessions of a Dark Dragon
16 years ago
Please, comment on my work , i need your thoughts
If ever anyone wondered why a Black Dragon became the Simbol that represents me, well, I can assure you it wasn't because of Sugar, Spice, and everything Nice.
Well, it used to be that way, but I believe true happiness came and went during the first 10 years of my life (which seemed eternal to me back then), but I don't know, if True Happiness will ever knock at my doorstep ever again.
After those 10 years, and with the death of my ever loving Grand Parents, The gates of Tribulation opened in my life, Not a day went by in which I wouldn't ask myself what sort of Crap I'd have to put up with today.
as the years went by, my days grew longer, grew colder, grew loveless. Alone, in a foreign land, in a world that didn't understand me (and I failed to understand it).
I used to be a Firm Believer, my faith was shakened. I Felt forsakened by God, I wondered what this child had done to deserve this, I asked it many times.
My Tears were dry, my emotions were vanishing, and sustaining a fake smile became torture. I could not express my true feelings, doing so would bring more harm than good, and so I bottled up the pain, the anger, and the hate, inside my heart, Now Callist and heavy as stone..
The Time of Dreams were gone, the nights only made bearable by the only one who still showed me what unconditional love and affection still meant.. My Cat.. and my Teddy Bear.. that keeps a constant reminder of Far happier days I know of no more.
Remaining in the Shadow of My parents, I have no choice but to embrace the darkness, and hope that there's a light, at the end of the 4 year tunnel.
..........
Its a wonder my mind remained intact, now split into 3 identities.
There was a time I used to seek companionship, but now all I desire is Loneliness, and a few friends I can trust...
My life has made me an introvert, and Logic has helped me find Peace in this world.
To my friend in black and white, I thankyou for your friendship.
Cadc
Inspired by
Katmomma's journal, who's apparently going through the hell I had to go through http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1114796/
Well, it used to be that way, but I believe true happiness came and went during the first 10 years of my life (which seemed eternal to me back then), but I don't know, if True Happiness will ever knock at my doorstep ever again.
After those 10 years, and with the death of my ever loving Grand Parents, The gates of Tribulation opened in my life, Not a day went by in which I wouldn't ask myself what sort of Crap I'd have to put up with today.
as the years went by, my days grew longer, grew colder, grew loveless. Alone, in a foreign land, in a world that didn't understand me (and I failed to understand it).
I used to be a Firm Believer, my faith was shakened. I Felt forsakened by God, I wondered what this child had done to deserve this, I asked it many times.
My Tears were dry, my emotions were vanishing, and sustaining a fake smile became torture. I could not express my true feelings, doing so would bring more harm than good, and so I bottled up the pain, the anger, and the hate, inside my heart, Now Callist and heavy as stone..
The Time of Dreams were gone, the nights only made bearable by the only one who still showed me what unconditional love and affection still meant.. My Cat.. and my Teddy Bear.. that keeps a constant reminder of Far happier days I know of no more.
Remaining in the Shadow of My parents, I have no choice but to embrace the darkness, and hope that there's a light, at the end of the 4 year tunnel.
..........
Its a wonder my mind remained intact, now split into 3 identities.
There was a time I used to seek companionship, but now all I desire is Loneliness, and a few friends I can trust...
My life has made me an introvert, and Logic has helped me find Peace in this world.
To my friend in black and white, I thankyou for your friendship.
Cadc
Inspired by
Katmomma's journal, who's apparently going through the hell I had to go through http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1114796/
but I know those things very well.
I'm also just entering junior year.. I should have been out by now, but I dropped architecture after 2 years, and started graphic design, for me its more like a 6 year tunnel now, lol..
<3 Thanks- and best of luck too with your endeavors. If I can pull through, you can too. we'll do it together ;)
man, you sure sound like a genious compared to me, how can your parents not be proud, it baffles me..
Sure, I have high standards, and I will see to it that I make a comfortable salary because most important to me right now is being able to support myself and survive on my own without anyone's help. I don't need a man to help me. I will prove my independence before giving my heart to anyone. and as long as I can support myself, who the fuck cares if he makes a little less or the same than me. I wouldn't marry someone I don't love or trust not to be a gold digger anyway. and if no one comes along to meet that standard, then I will continue doing what I love by myself.
you understand what it is to not always have everything you want, but to fight for the things you believe in, I like that, and I share the same beliefs...
I don't know if this is stupidity or not, but think I'd like to be your Boy friend, I'd like to be with one who understands what I've gone through, I'm sure you seek the same.
We can get through this, but perhaps, we can make cross this path, and get through it together
a reply would be nice though
I'm flattered by your interest, but there is already a man in my life that I am very fond of and very close to, and I'm not interested in pursuing anyone else. Dating really isn't my thing...love is found in ways that are much deeper than just common interest or attraction, but involves the spirit and companionship.
best of luck to you finding your future mate :) You have a lot of courage, I commend you for it. But be careful, because you seem a little too pushy...perhaps there are girls out there who can admire that. But in regard to what I value in life, haste is a big turn off ;)
oh well, thanks, someday, someday
My atmosphere is more dull gray, but of a similar ilk
She was the only one in the family who understood me to a degree - so now i'm looking for work and hiding in books
My main escape is online tho
well, I'm glad you've found your inner peace, and a special someone to help cast away your troubled mind.
you know, I've been curious, how did you and amanda meet? seeing as you two are about as far from each other as it gets?