Prozac Follow Up
18 years ago
First off, I want to apologize to anyone I offended, hurt, angered, or anything else in that line, with my journal yesterday. That was in no way what I was intending to do, and I never expected to get such a response from people.
But I would also like to thank everyone who posted a comment to bitch at me. All that stuff is really something I've been needing to hear. You guys helped me to reevaluate a whole bunch of stupid and immature beliefs I had been holding with me for a long time now (such as way overgeneralizing things).
You've also helped me see one of the big, albeit hidden, beliefs that's been affecting my thoughts and actions, probably since forever. It's one thing I really haven't wanted to face, but with that little (big) push, just identifying it has lifted a big weight off my shoulders.
To whoever said about me in Micah's journal something to the effect of, "You just can't change some people," I'm changing. Anything that causes so much pain to so many people is not something I want to hold with me.
I'm not sure I can put the rest of my thoughts together in a coherent manner, but I am working on this. So in conclusion, I'm sorry, thank you, I've done something stupid, I'm admitting I'm wrong, and I'm learning from it.
<3,
Meg
PS: I don't know if I can reply to all the comments I've gotten, but I am reading them and taking their contents to heart.
But I would also like to thank everyone who posted a comment to bitch at me. All that stuff is really something I've been needing to hear. You guys helped me to reevaluate a whole bunch of stupid and immature beliefs I had been holding with me for a long time now (such as way overgeneralizing things).
You've also helped me see one of the big, albeit hidden, beliefs that's been affecting my thoughts and actions, probably since forever. It's one thing I really haven't wanted to face, but with that little (big) push, just identifying it has lifted a big weight off my shoulders.
To whoever said about me in Micah's journal something to the effect of, "You just can't change some people," I'm changing. Anything that causes so much pain to so many people is not something I want to hold with me.
I'm not sure I can put the rest of my thoughts together in a coherent manner, but I am working on this. So in conclusion, I'm sorry, thank you, I've done something stupid, I'm admitting I'm wrong, and I'm learning from it.
<3,
Meg
PS: I don't know if I can reply to all the comments I've gotten, but I am reading them and taking their contents to heart.
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And, lol, culdn't post in the other journal for I was not at home, and better, for I could have replied in anguer XDDD
I have depressions, and even tried to kill myself in the past 9_9 started used medication but I don't liked them, they made me dull. Been 5 years with no medications, I feel depressed several times but I just deal with it the best I can concentrating in the army and in my studies ^^
I'm wondering the same thing myself...
The people who truly need help (and I won't say whether or not I think your mother's one of them cause I don't know her) should be the ones getting it, and everyone trying to look for an easy out, ESPECIALLY oversensitive whiners, need to get over it. You learned something from some people, and I hope some people learned something from part of what you said as well. Some of blindly judgmental people haven't even really truly tried to fix their issues, they're just scared you're gonna pop their security bubble :T
To anyone who just read this who isn't the OP and was just offended: I don't expect a lecture, I think I'm pretty informed on the issue and satisfactorily sensitive to people who really do need help and people who need a swift kick in the ass alike.
Do you have any idea how RARE it is these days for anyone, not just people on the internet, ANYONE, to come out and admit they're wrong about something and apologize!?
That takes guts. I commend you for doing the right thing, instead of digging in, getting angrier and clinging to your beliefs like a dog holding a dead rat in his teeth, rather than ever admitting any fault. That unfortunately seems to be the default behavior for anyone who's proven wrong in this society anymore.
Penn & Teller wrote something in one of their books that was kind of a throwaway line, but it really stuck with me nonetheless. They said that when any of us is proved wrong, that we should give up our old, outdated beliefs immediately and be *happy* about it. Happy to have learned and happy to no longer be believing in something untrue. Ever since reading that, I've tried hard to live my life like that. I wish more people would too. It feels surprisingly good. ^__^
(P.S. I know I came down hard on you in my comments on the other jornal. I did so because what you wrote truly hurt me. The reason I'm not still ragging on you now is that I would much, much, MUCH have someone learn from their mistakes and grow as a person, rather than just being enemies with them forever. Grudges are for people who enjoy pointless stress. That's another thing it feels good to get away from.)
What can I say? Reading that gave me an honest-to-gosh epiphany!
On a mostly unrelated note: Why do so many people assume you're a boy?