well i didnt do an update about my last trip 2 the treatment center but in a nut shell we got me a pain pump and the meds in it worked for about 2 weeks then things got progressiviely worse and we had 2 take me up again 2 here on my current trip.


now...for the news i got yesterday i had 2 go 2 the OICC which is sort of like the treatment centers 2nd ER and while waiting for me 2 be admited cause the rooms where filled up the day before that and while waiting they gave me an MRI 2 see wat exactly was causeing all my back problems i was waiting in the room literally unable 2 lay down stand sit or walk with me on my knees and my arms on the seat of the chair hunched over because it was the only way i could rest out it hurting me 2 the point of causing me 2 cry and then my pain management dr walked in and said 2 me and my mom "we got the results back from your MRI and there is no easy way 2 say this but the scan showed that u have cancer in ur tail bone" he said we will be doing treatment for it next week eather on monday or tuesday he walked out appologizing and just saying he felt we should be the 1st 2 know wat they found after he shut the door i bent over on the chair having a mental break down and started crying and simply said "im going 2 die" im still very upset about all this but im supposed 2 be having surgery and radiation next week on monday or tuesday this being in a couple days. im hopeing and praying that this will go good and going on wat the drs have told me it sounds like we where able 2 catch this fairly close 2 the begining as far as getting my next round of chemo goes i have no idea wat they will be doing as far as that goes so if u r a watcher for me if u could leave a support comment it would mean alot cause this entire thing has got me scared really bad but im trying 2 be optomistic that this will all turn out alright.