Loneliness + Rant + Normalcy is dead (please share w/others)
7 years ago
Why am I so lonely?
I can't feel happy very often anymore; even when my family is in the same fucking room as me, I feel so GODDAMM FUCKING LONELY!!! HOW DO I CURE MYSELF OF THIS LONELYNESS???
And don't you DARE say that I should tell my parents. They reject furries, kind of reject bronies (albeit they let me watch MLP), and 100% reject my DL side. Well, I have to LIE to them about my DL side. Let me write out a conversation we had about this stuff sort of recently.
Me: Mom, what would you say if I kind of... wanted to wear diapers?
Mom: Then I'd take you to the psychologist and make sure they cured you of this sick idea. I'd have them dope you up on medicines so that you can think straight and "normal". (then she'd ground me for life just because I asked a FUCKING QUESTION!)
Mom: *sees that I'm on Deviantart* GET OFF OF THERE! I DON'T WANT YOU TURNING INTO A DEVIANT!!!!
No one I know will understand me. I'm afraid of trying to talk about this to ANYONE i know in real life. I just want someone to be there for me and support me in a way that I don't believe that my parents can ever do. Show this to everyone you know. Just PLEASE, help me!!!
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I can't feel happy very often anymore; even when my family is in the same fucking room as me, I feel so GODDAMM FUCKING LONELY!!! HOW DO I CURE MYSELF OF THIS LONELYNESS???
And don't you DARE say that I should tell my parents. They reject furries, kind of reject bronies (albeit they let me watch MLP), and 100% reject my DL side. Well, I have to LIE to them about my DL side. Let me write out a conversation we had about this stuff sort of recently.
Me: Mom, what would you say if I kind of... wanted to wear diapers?
Mom: Then I'd take you to the psychologist and make sure they cured you of this sick idea. I'd have them dope you up on medicines so that you can think straight and "normal". (then she'd ground me for life just because I asked a FUCKING QUESTION!)
Mom: *sees that I'm on Deviantart* GET OFF OF THERE! I DON'T WANT YOU TURNING INTO A DEVIANT!!!!
No one I know will understand me. I'm afraid of trying to talk about this to ANYONE i know in real life. I just want someone to be there for me and support me in a way that I don't believe that my parents can ever do. Show this to everyone you know. Just PLEASE, help me!!!
please help me please help me please help me please help me
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what i would say, and take it with a grain of salt. i would not tell them until your 18 and on your own, so if they get angry they would have space to cool down. i can honestly say me and my mother have had huge falling outs, but we always seem to make up. as for diaper lover stuff i see as super personal. as i wouldn't talk about it anymore then i would my underwear.
use your best judgement, and keep in mind you are stuck until your 18, and have the means to leave home. if your already 18 then your half way there. i would say get out as soon as possible, and if you feel you have to come clean well tell them when your able to take care of yourself. be careful and stay safe. if you want advice or to talk i have my discord, skype, and telegram posted on my page or if this is the only way we can talk im more then happy to do just that.
just know your never alone, and there are a lot of people that care about you im sure.
Talking online isn't really filling this void. I'm afraid the only way the void will be gone is if someone in REAL LIFE that I know turned out to like this stuff. I can't just go around asking people if they like diapers/furries!!!
Don't too worry about your quirk, and I think the best things to filling your void is study, or you can read some interesting novel, it's good for you, really good