I barely ever do journals or anything because I can never think of a lot to say outside of when I have new uploads. Honestly I don't know what people would be interesting to see, but to everyone following me, thank you, and I hope if nothing else I give you a smile. A lot going on here recently.

There was a big scare recently with my Aunt that's been plaguing my mind recently. She had a heart attack. More than that. it damaged her heart so badly that the triple bypass she was going to have couldn't be preformed. I overheard today that she was being sent home, effectively left to her own fate. She and my Uncle both have Do Not Resuscitate orders. I hope she can hang on until her heart heals and they decide to give it a shot so she can have a long life with Uncle Ed. He loves her dearly, and I worry about him if she passes. Dad's also taken that hard, because for as much as she tormented him when he was younger, she's also looked out for him through their HEAVILY physically abusive upbringing at the hands of their stepfather. He's sadly taking this news the only way he knows how: being silent and finding the bottom of a bottle.

Unlike my coworker who died from COVID, I at least have the comfort of knowing the last time I saw her was the nicest I could make it. Before my Aunt and Uncle moved out of state, I bought and prepared a going away luncheon for them, dressed the table with flowers, broke out my nice china, and just tried to let them know I cared. I remember how much Eddy liked my Victorian Recipe Pudding and Currant jam. Aunt Bonnie is a huge Lobster fan, so I made sure we had some. My Co-Worker bumped into me while I was on the clock, so aside from some pleasantries, I didn't get much time to say or do anything meaningful.

I really wonder how this is going to effect us all, being surrounded by death, politics, and vitriol so constantly. And I'm not pointing at any one side either. Take it from someone working in retail, there have been some people who have been absolutely abominable over these last two years. People trampling people for bottled water & Toilet Paper, it's just as bad as the monsters that come out on Black Friday.

There's a lot on my mind, so sorry if this just sort of rambles on in parts. I dunno...