Please be honest, I need to know if this is something I should continue to pursue as I feel like I’ve only been getting worse the harder I try to make something I’m happy with. I feel like my writing speed and quality has been slowly diminishing rather than improving after my first story and I’m starting to ask myself if I should even pursue this passion of mine.

I’m in a world where I need to be thinking of my livelihood. I only have so much time left until I’m forced into the world to survive for myself. If my writing never takes off, then I’ll be completely screwed, having spent so much time and effort into a fruitless passion. I don’t have the luxury of being able to do this “just for fun” anymore... Now I have that dagger of responsibility just floating above my head and it’s only a matter of time before it falls down on me. I NEED to be improving or else what’s the point? I’m clearly not good enough as is and I’m so far from being good it seems like I’ll never get there. I’m at the point where I can’t just go after a passion for the passions sake. I need to be thinking of my future and how it will help me get to a state where I can survive. The pressure is really getting to me and I’m gradually growing more anxious and stressed from not seeing any growth, let alone never feeling like I’m writing enough…

What do I do? Do I keep trying to go after this passion while I still can or just give in and chose a safer, albeit less happy route in life? I need to decide before the options are closed off for good…