A lot has happened in the time since the last journal. Long story short, I am now at peace with the fact that I am actually a trans girl and have begun the arduous process of transitioning in real life. I have come out to my friends and family, have started HRT, and am in the process of getting my name changed and updating all of my identification (which takes quite a while, as well I know, having changed my name a couple of times already before). One of the neat side effects of this all happening, though, is that I am happier than I ever have been, which isn't really saying much, given that I've always been kind of depressed, but almost all of my self-doubt and so on has completely evaporated, beginning from the moment I sort of came out to myself. It was as if a massive weight was lifted from my shoulders; I could allow the mas[c]k (haha) of pretend-cisness fall to the floor and begin to discover myself for real for the first time.

So, yes, finally I can confidently say I know what I am — a girl.

Just typing that and reading it and knowing I typed it brings me such an overwhelming tidal wave of euphoria such that I've never felt before. I want that feeling to continue on and never ever go away.

Now that I'm here, it's fairly set in stone now that I can never go back. As far as furry, online platforms go, I will now be Reina full-time. Now the question remains from last time of what to do with my old sona. I think they may be in need of a femme makeover, so I will definitely be in the market for that in the future.