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4 years ago
So I just had another miscarriage and I might be taking a break from this. I'm finishing up what I was already working on and then... I don't know.
I'm fine. I feel like I should be crying but this has happened so many times that I have no tears left to cry over it. At this point I feel mildly disappointed. And numb.
On a happier note, this got my partner and I to seriously talk about having children (instead of these "surprises"). We have decided to try for a baby later this month, if my body is up to it. I thought "maybe if I really want it, it will happen" right? Dumb logic but I do really want to start a family. Actually I've been wanting to start a family and now more than ever I want kids. I'd always envisioned myself as a younger mom. Never wanted to wait till my thirties or even late twenties for a baby. Hell with my record of miscarriages, if I do wait until "the optimal time" aka late 20's early 30's I will be infertile by that point. The earlier I try, the better chance I have. Well, technically I guess I am considered infertile. It's just hard to believe that infertility can happen in late teens-early twenties. Sadly, that's me.
But yes we do want kids. We've wanted kids for a while now but just never planned it out. Wish us luck.
I'm fine. I feel like I should be crying but this has happened so many times that I have no tears left to cry over it. At this point I feel mildly disappointed. And numb.
On a happier note, this got my partner and I to seriously talk about having children (instead of these "surprises"). We have decided to try for a baby later this month, if my body is up to it. I thought "maybe if I really want it, it will happen" right? Dumb logic but I do really want to start a family. Actually I've been wanting to start a family and now more than ever I want kids. I'd always envisioned myself as a younger mom. Never wanted to wait till my thirties or even late twenties for a baby. Hell with my record of miscarriages, if I do wait until "the optimal time" aka late 20's early 30's I will be infertile by that point. The earlier I try, the better chance I have. Well, technically I guess I am considered infertile. It's just hard to believe that infertility can happen in late teens-early twenties. Sadly, that's me.
But yes we do want kids. We've wanted kids for a while now but just never planned it out. Wish us luck.
Not to mention the lengthy process of it all. I wish adoption wasn't made so difficult.
Then there's my partner who is still on the fence about it.