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Why do i bother?
16 years ago
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there's some really great amazing people in this world. They don't always have free time, and I get that. Its a blessing that I get to spend ANY time with them but because of it, it just sucks how much I enjoy their company how ever little it is and wanting more. Yeah I'm selfish, but I guess that's the person I am.
I didn't want to cause a ruckus about it, I just wanted to tell one friend that I needed to stop trying so goddamn hard to talk to 1 amazing person that's sadly barely in my life because there wasn't enough time in this god forsaken world.
Yeah, I know I have high expectations sometimes... but lately.... I've dropped them so low the bar is just soo stupid easy that I just want to give up on some people.
It started with my xbf, he was too busy and his mom found out and cut us apart. FINE! Then there was home, I have to do ALL the house work aside from cooking every other meal, FINE! Then there was this one "friends" and I use this term loosely for these girls because they only bitched about their xbfs everytime they have a break up; tried to cheer em up, have fun and forget the relationships, Fuck it, same doormat that they always will be. They only talk to me WHEN they break up anyways so why should I care and try to cheer them up. I'm tired about caring for people like this, If you dont get "STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM, IM GOING TO FUCKING LEAVE YOU TO YOUR BITCHING!"
I want to be friends with people who don't really care about you're background. I want friends that just like to talk casually or help solve problems, have fun and move on. Staying in the same problem day after day sucks, so why people dig deeper holes for themselves beats me. I just hate that the people I have so much fun with don't always have time for fun with me. I don't care that this is a selfish wish, to have fun with the people you love and care about? Is that really a "bad" thing?
If you want to be friends and don't have enough time, fine. I'll be friends, I just wish there was more time in this world for me to spend with you. Life's a bitch and then you go on, right? but i mean, is it too much to ask, month after month, after month?
I didn't want to cause a ruckus about it, I just wanted to tell one friend that I needed to stop trying so goddamn hard to talk to 1 amazing person that's sadly barely in my life because there wasn't enough time in this god forsaken world.
Yeah, I know I have high expectations sometimes... but lately.... I've dropped them so low the bar is just soo stupid easy that I just want to give up on some people.
It started with my xbf, he was too busy and his mom found out and cut us apart. FINE! Then there was home, I have to do ALL the house work aside from cooking every other meal, FINE! Then there was this one "friends" and I use this term loosely for these girls because they only bitched about their xbfs everytime they have a break up; tried to cheer em up, have fun and forget the relationships, Fuck it, same doormat that they always will be. They only talk to me WHEN they break up anyways so why should I care and try to cheer them up. I'm tired about caring for people like this, If you dont get "STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM, IM GOING TO FUCKING LEAVE YOU TO YOUR BITCHING!"
I want to be friends with people who don't really care about you're background. I want friends that just like to talk casually or help solve problems, have fun and move on. Staying in the same problem day after day sucks, so why people dig deeper holes for themselves beats me. I just hate that the people I have so much fun with don't always have time for fun with me. I don't care that this is a selfish wish, to have fun with the people you love and care about? Is that really a "bad" thing?
If you want to be friends and don't have enough time, fine. I'll be friends, I just wish there was more time in this world for me to spend with you. Life's a bitch and then you go on, right? but i mean, is it too much to ask, month after month, after month?
lol, i need to go to one the day after my birthday :P