written with google translate
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Hey, guys
this journal is aimed primarily at my customers who are waiting for their commissions and YCHs
I have a problem and I'm gonna talk about it here

I've been in an abusive relationship with my partner and husband for the last three years.
I didn't realize it, but the daily insults, humiliations and yelling at me was really hurting me, my self-esteem and mental state in general
in addition, of my own free will, I provided for myself and my husband, while he had to develop in his business to also start earning, help me around the house and support me just as a close person
(spoiler, in 3 years none of this ever happened)

This relationship crippled me and my ability to work very badly, so I very much delayed orders and broke deadlines
I forced myself to work hard every day while the accusations and dissatisfaction were flooding my mind again

Two months ago I decided it had to end, I made that decision with the help of my artist friends, you may know them under these nicknames: Merime, KatfishCom, tabu-rat, Free-Opium, Alasta, Matemi, BurryRo etc.
I'm madly grateful to the girls for the daily support, I don't want to think about what I would have done with myself if not for them

I finally broke up with my husband today

Still have to deal with the divorce and other household stuff, but I feel free and easy to breathe for the first time in a long time

I told you about it for the sole purpose of asking for your understanding and patience
I'll be sure to draw all the actual orders
I'm closer to it now than ever before
I only ask for a little bit of your indulgence
I love my job and this fandom very much, I really want to make art stuff for you, I just need time to get stronger

Among other things, I don't have a PC and I plan to take out a loan for it so that I will be able to work immediately after the final separation and division of assets


Thank you