My doctor put me on antidepressants a bit over a year ago. At the time, I was having SEVERE anxiety attacks and depression episodes that made me feel worthless, unloved, and worst off, that I should just end it all. These attacks would last anywhere from 5 minutes to several hours. I started to become emotionally numb, at times for stretches that went on for days.

There were also several major issues going on in my life at the time that added to the stress. First, as for most, Covid hit, and for those that know me, I work in a hospital. That stress alone not a great starting point. Furthermore, my supervisor had a passive aggressive agenda on me. She apparently has his habit of choosing a tech and just focusing all negative energy on them. My home situation was far from great as well. I've been living with my parents for the past 10 or so years and my relation with my parents are not the best. My mother uses me as her in house shrink, unloading drama on me quite frequently. Just before covid hit, my sister decided that my parents weren't allowed to see the grandkids ever again. (whoooole lotta mess and lies and cheating and divorce and such going on that she didn't want us near) So my mother was constantly depressed and then would unload that on me every chance she could. For nearly a year, I had no relief; harassment at work, severe drama at home. I was cracking.

A few months ago, I got a break on both ends. First, at work, I was able to report my supervisor to HR and had hard evidence of gas lighting and faulty accusations with an exchange of emails between her and I. Then on the home front, my sister and her husband got a formal divorce. Now the kids come over every other week but only because their father, NOT my sister, allows it. It's clear that she wants nothing to do with my parents. So a few weeks ago, I started to ween myself off my medications and it's going well. I only had one very minor anxiety attack, but I was able to recognize it for what it was, put a positive thought in my head and continue on with my work. In all, that episode only lasted about 30 seconds

TLDR: Started meds a bit over a year ago due to high stress with issues at work and home with no relief. Issues have been resolved and I started to ween myself off the meds and so far, so good.