Haven’t put up a lot of art as of late, as my art production slowed down over the years and even more so the last few months, Culminating to a month ago where I had to stop my daily doodles all together.

Because fibromyalgia is a bitch and can affect you so much as to make it a difficult, painful task just to pick up a pen and note down a grocery list.

Decisions have been made and I’m now on fulltime sickleave instead of half, starting yesterday and lasting until January.

I’m to focus on resting and recovering, and then light exercises to rebuild again. I was pressing myself too much at work, the stress of wanting to perform only making it worse. So work, during our busiest time of year, had to be removed from the equation to hope for any recovery. Once things calm down in January, I can go back on a new schedule of less hours to ease back into it again.

I’m blessed that my case worker got through to me that this isn’t just about keeping me a productive member of society. But about my general well being too, to ensure I’m not too broken down to function at home.

So the goal they gave me to focus on, is to regain my ability to draw without fatigue or pain. Then they’ll consider me ready to softly start at work again.

I’m far too eager to push myself to perform for “good grades”, so is still going to be a struggle to remember to take this slow.

But hope is I’ll be able to draw again, as I’ve missed it so badly. Is my hobby, my stress relief, how I illustrate my state of mind and being, how I relate to people.

So, fingers crossed