It's been a while since I've posted a journal. But today is one that gives me a reason to. Today, just two hours before posting this, I took the first step in truly living my life as who I am. I came out to my mother about being trans mtf. I was terrified all day, but after talking to my best friend for several hours, my anxiety was reduced enough that I was able to gather the courage to go downstairs and talk to her. It got emotional, and it took explaining a few things, but in the end it worked out. She understands and accepts who I am, and while this may not immediately mend our issues, it can be a start. Soon, I plan to get a therapist and talk to them about this, and from there, eventually start HRT. It might take a while, but I feel like my life is finally moving in a positive direction.