First off I want to apologize for making my friends along with everyone checking in on me worried because of my silence. It wasn't my intention to put you'll through that ordeal of stressing of my whereabouts. But the truth is, I was pretty certain that this time around I was finally gonna die. And I sincerely believed I was. And if I was, I had figured it would have been easier on everyone to simply vanish, to be a someone who was online one day and then not the next, slowly to be forgotten as time passes on.

I know. I'm a horrible person for going for that route, but I've never been the type of person to burden anyone with what I'm going through. And because of that, I figured this would be the easiest way to do things. I didn't even tell my family this time around, figured what was the point y'know? But now that I'm recovering, I feel riddled with guilt on how I handled things. And sure I could have continued on with keeping things to myself and just come back like nothing happened, but I genuinely feel wrong for keeping everyone in the dark about this for so long.

I just want to let everyone know that I'm doing fine now, and that after months of hospitalizations, I've finally been given a date to go home by this weekend. Hopefully after I'm released and get settled, I will finally be able to patch things up with everyone and catch up with some friends. I know there's a few things I need to work on like finishing some unfinished commissions that are long overdue (I really owe these people an apology) as well as getting up to speed with everyone, but I honestly look forward to it all, especially after everything I had to go through. I just can't wait to take advantage of this extra life I've been given and get things back to normal.

And to my friends that have been concerned, again I am deeply sorry for what I put you'll through. I'll make sure to drop in later and talk with you'll when I'm feeling a bit more awake. But for now, rest easy and love to the most of ya.

-yolo99