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4 years ago
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Been a while since I made an appearance here, uh? I hope you're all doing well! I know some of you don't follow me on twitter and only a few have my discord so I thought I'd post here about this and that.
I have made a few posts on twitter over time, just to drop in, say hi etc but I didn't post any art until recently when I dared to post something. As you may or may not know, I got really down and beat over people taking my art work and it left me feeling.. so deflated and it the situation didn't exactly improve, the issue I had a tumblr user using my art was never resolved, tumblr decided to not help me or resolve the problem so that person is still using my work - they certainly do not have my permission -- anyway, my new piece was posted on my twitter which is currently protected still (and has been during the entirety of my hiatus). I do miss drawing tummy art, so much so that I decided to ask for art trades over on twitter so I will be making even more new art soon and the piece I mentioned already, that's sort of a project I'm slowly working on. I'm not saying I'm now active again but I'm saying I am making art sometimes.
It's not like I've not drawn over the last months, my main twitter account has all my other art on it, I draw mostly fanart these days of a certain franchise QwQ~ I just haven't been drawing tummy art until lately, it was nice to go back to it.. I'm just, worried I guess. (The reason I haven't removed all my pieces from sites is for reasons like; On tumblr, you can delete a post but if it has already had reblogs, it stays around :/ Even if I could hide all my art, people do save my uploads and they are likely to repost it against my wishes, I don't know why people think they are entitled to do that but they do, I've seen it happen to artists - just a quick reminder, do not repost my art, it's not nice at all to do that and it's really disrespectful to do it against an artists wishes!!). You may wonder what brought me back and managed to make me draw tummy art again - well, I mingled a tiny bit with the fan base of the franchise I enjoy and they have wrote pregnancy stories and after throwing ideas at each, I felt motivated to draw some of the ideas. It happened pretty naturally too, I found out they shared an enjoyment of fluffy family dynamics, including the pregnancy part and eventually when I was 100% sure, we started talking over discord about stuff including pregnancy topics with the characters and it was fun!! To find some one in such a small fanbase who doesn't mind it, feels so good;; ; I haven't made it 100% obvious that I'm into pregnancy themes on my main, I still feel /very/ uneasy about being so open about it since it is my safe space and I would like to keep it that way. But yeah, that happened.
Life in general has been hectic. My art production has slowed down a LOT because I'm just so tired and exhausted constantly..
I got a new job, finally leaving my old stressful one, I've settled in nicely but it's more hours so I'm available less and more tired (''':
My health remains terrible, but that's nothing new. Like lately I had to be put on antibiotics for a swollen ear canal and perforated ear drum (I guess an losing battle with an ear infection for years will do that to you >3>;)
I turned 30. Yay.
I did also have a good long think about my identity too. For a long time I've just.. not felt, right? Nothing did. For years I identified as genderfluid for a long time, about 12 years actually, after speaking to a friend about it, they described me as that so I just went with it.. But for years now I haven't felt that was right and I just didn't know anymore, pronouns I've used didn't feel right at all, in fact they made me uneasy, but I was too afraid to ask or confined in anyone. I had a chat with my partner about how I felt randomly one night on our way back from an card game event and suddenly I felt like I figured it out finally, I didn't feel he pronouns were right but I also didn't feel she pronouns were right either. I dunno why it took me so long to figure that out, I've always wanted a neutral look and why I couldn't figure out that's what I was.. is beyond me, maybe it was anxiety or something, I'd really like to know?? I definitely feel on edge talking about my gender, especially since I bring this up with no one other than my partner (people I know irl made me feel a little too anxious about being open about my gender) .. but identifying as non-binary feels right and perfect, it feels like "me" and I'm happy to finally figure out who I am. I'm Nao! I'm They/Them and I'm 30 years old. This has been a confusing and difficult journey, self discovery is never easy and I've never felt more myself for the first time in years.
I don't really have anything else to add in the life department, my life isn't very interesting >3>;
But anyway, I hope you're all doing well, keep safe and see you around, hopefully!!
I have made a few posts on twitter over time, just to drop in, say hi etc but I didn't post any art until recently when I dared to post something. As you may or may not know, I got really down and beat over people taking my art work and it left me feeling.. so deflated and it the situation didn't exactly improve, the issue I had a tumblr user using my art was never resolved, tumblr decided to not help me or resolve the problem so that person is still using my work - they certainly do not have my permission -- anyway, my new piece was posted on my twitter which is currently protected still (and has been during the entirety of my hiatus). I do miss drawing tummy art, so much so that I decided to ask for art trades over on twitter so I will be making even more new art soon and the piece I mentioned already, that's sort of a project I'm slowly working on. I'm not saying I'm now active again but I'm saying I am making art sometimes.
It's not like I've not drawn over the last months, my main twitter account has all my other art on it, I draw mostly fanart these days of a certain franchise QwQ~ I just haven't been drawing tummy art until lately, it was nice to go back to it.. I'm just, worried I guess. (The reason I haven't removed all my pieces from sites is for reasons like; On tumblr, you can delete a post but if it has already had reblogs, it stays around :/ Even if I could hide all my art, people do save my uploads and they are likely to repost it against my wishes, I don't know why people think they are entitled to do that but they do, I've seen it happen to artists - just a quick reminder, do not repost my art, it's not nice at all to do that and it's really disrespectful to do it against an artists wishes!!). You may wonder what brought me back and managed to make me draw tummy art again - well, I mingled a tiny bit with the fan base of the franchise I enjoy and they have wrote pregnancy stories and after throwing ideas at each, I felt motivated to draw some of the ideas. It happened pretty naturally too, I found out they shared an enjoyment of fluffy family dynamics, including the pregnancy part and eventually when I was 100% sure, we started talking over discord about stuff including pregnancy topics with the characters and it was fun!! To find some one in such a small fanbase who doesn't mind it, feels so good;; ; I haven't made it 100% obvious that I'm into pregnancy themes on my main, I still feel /very/ uneasy about being so open about it since it is my safe space and I would like to keep it that way. But yeah, that happened.
Life in general has been hectic. My art production has slowed down a LOT because I'm just so tired and exhausted constantly..
I got a new job, finally leaving my old stressful one, I've settled in nicely but it's more hours so I'm available less and more tired (''':
My health remains terrible, but that's nothing new. Like lately I had to be put on antibiotics for a swollen ear canal and perforated ear drum (I guess an losing battle with an ear infection for years will do that to you >3>;)
I turned 30. Yay.
I did also have a good long think about my identity too. For a long time I've just.. not felt, right? Nothing did. For years I identified as genderfluid for a long time, about 12 years actually, after speaking to a friend about it, they described me as that so I just went with it.. But for years now I haven't felt that was right and I just didn't know anymore, pronouns I've used didn't feel right at all, in fact they made me uneasy, but I was too afraid to ask or confined in anyone. I had a chat with my partner about how I felt randomly one night on our way back from an card game event and suddenly I felt like I figured it out finally, I didn't feel he pronouns were right but I also didn't feel she pronouns were right either. I dunno why it took me so long to figure that out, I've always wanted a neutral look and why I couldn't figure out that's what I was.. is beyond me, maybe it was anxiety or something, I'd really like to know?? I definitely feel on edge talking about my gender, especially since I bring this up with no one other than my partner (people I know irl made me feel a little too anxious about being open about my gender) .. but identifying as non-binary feels right and perfect, it feels like "me" and I'm happy to finally figure out who I am. I'm Nao! I'm They/Them and I'm 30 years old. This has been a confusing and difficult journey, self discovery is never easy and I've never felt more myself for the first time in years.
I don't really have anything else to add in the life department, my life isn't very interesting >3>;
But anyway, I hope you're all doing well, keep safe and see you around, hopefully!!
yesyes, tums are the best to draw, it'll always be my favourite, I just need to take my time coming back into it. I haven't actually had any contact or anything with the thief since confronting them and asking them to change, they still continue to use that one piece of my art though u__u
thanks again!! it really does feel like I'm finally at peace with myself ; w ;