"While youre away working hard training thinking it'll never end even though its only been a short time. Everyone else outside has lived their lives like normal and probably haven't thought of you as often as you thought of them"
Said by someone who outranks me

Thoes words are sticking to me hard tonight. Update i joined the military! Feels great really. But seeing everyone life updates makes me feel kinda left out. Im glad that family members, friends, and frostbite lived life and kept moving on while i was away without any form of contact. Besides the 5 min phone calls and chicken scratch letters.

I feel so alone
I know im not, and i know i have people who who support each other and myself, and thoes back home
And ill be okay too i just wish i could see someone people i love again