so yesterdays my birthday so im 20 now and it was alright, i went to buffalo wild wings with my mom and my niece + sister and i had a good time there at least and got some doordash money and a gift card.

i was originally gonna make this journal yesterday but i was too tired and burned out (still)


your free to draw birthday gift art for me!! just nsfw, sfw, or kink is fine!! Just ask me about kink and NSFW stuff beforehand

https://toyhou.se/7390427.braelyn#23951367
https://toyhou.se/13328725.raven#41375445
https://toyhou.se/13328427.-#41374666

these are the most preferred art but feel free to explore my toyhouse and just tell me what oc your drawing

AND...

updates about owed art especially commissions


there is a reason why i havent been drawing and posting much related to other peoples art at all...


1. im suffering a massive severe burnout right now and i dont know how to get out of it other than ride it out

this isnt the first time i had one i meean i was literally inacitve on this account for 6 months nothing but faving stuff

2. i have been extremely stressed out a lot by irl events and family issues

3. going thru SSRI withdrawals and taking a new anti-anxiety medication

4. executive dysfunction is a nightmare and so is getting depression spikes a lot

5. this is a tad more personal and venty but im constantly anxious over people asking me for updates or start saying i might be scamming them because in their heads i didnt finish it on time. it absolutely triggers my rejection sensitivity as an autistic person and my brain trhinks their gonna ask for a refund or accuse me of scamming because that has happened before esp a few times. i have no idea on how to ease this thanks. (stuff like "oh you do need to make some progress on it" and "its a business" dont help as it fuels my anxiety even more)

this isnt some gotcha "oh i will only do this when i feel like it!" whcih isnt at all i just wish i could just *do* stuff like normal people. but i cant.

Do you have any idea on how to put this in my TOS without making it look like im being shitty or pushing my clients??

6. school SCHOOL school even though i leave early now around 11:55 am


but i promise y'all all of the owed art will be done as soon im able to hopefully and thank you very much for understanding and being patient. i appreciate y'all. I cannot provide refunds for the time being so I apologize for that and please understand if you absolutely want a refund you will have to wait around a month or earlier depending if i receive enough money.