And I honestly don't even feel happy about it.

I missed so many art opportunities because all my efforts has to be focused on completing all those goddamn assignments, many off which were half-assed because I simply had no passion to do them. I suffered numerous health issues and a number of panic attacks to the point of needing to go to the hospital to check my heart.

I dunno, right now I just feel completely dejected and I needed to vent about it.

I'm hoping Christmas will do something for my spirits.