With COVID still around and new variants in the air I couldn't go and visit my family in Uruguay.

And seems things there are not going so well mom is getting older and my ex husband I don’t clearly know what’s going on in his head but information that my mother give me it’s really concerning.

He lost lot of weight, it’s not eating well and seems he’s less motivated in his regular activities we already know he was diagnosed with cancer as well as my mom but when I came to the States all was well. Now we are suspecting that maybe he’s depressed and MAYBE something more alarming but because he’s not open about his health with no one we can’t really know.

From my end I have to open a new account for PayPal since I can’t change the nationality of the one I have. The few savings I had there it only can be spent in services online so basically they are stuck in there and new account it’s in 0.

With ex husband not accounting for the rest of the family it’s running trying to get Camilo my son something prepared in case something happens and I can’t be there to assist my mom.

This is the hardest journal I write in a while and I really have doubts on writing this.

The future of my son really concern me, he has Autism and is not those where he can do things by his own, I have Asperger Syndrome that makes me overwhelmed easily and always relay to someone else into how to manage myself into the word, that’s why I thought that with my family my son will be in good hands.

But now I really need stuck funds for my son future, can’t get a job that’s for sure, my pains most of days are out of control (have fibromyalgia) so I only relying in commissions, ych and every little sale I can make.

Of course I’m going to be back to Uruguay but for the moment we can get a chance to catch something.

Thanks so, so much for reading I hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Healthy 2022❤️