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Why is Johnny angry?
4 years ago
Ok Furries. Lets have a chat but probably no one will read this shit anyway so I guess I am doing this for my own benefit rn. People will look at my tweets from yesterday (which, none have been deleted) & might ask yourself a question.
"Johnny? Why are you so angry?"
Lets begin
Lets start a month or so ago where I was employed, kinda happy and I decided to put up a wishmas list. Who knew that shit would go south so quickly? So I lost my job, applied from unemployment and started a new job so everything should be peachy keen right?
Wrong.
Unemployment was certified now going on two weeks and nothing has been done. They say if it goes past that to call them which is impossible because they close at noon and it's nearly impossible to get to a LIVE person on a fifteen minute break. You have a BETTER chance of hitting a fucking LOTTERY than that happening. However, since Christmas was coming I was hoping for a Christmas miracle of someone either getting me something off my wishmas list.. or something else happening like unemployment clearing or getting my $600 from state. None of that happened in fact the OPPOSITE happened where my mate got HIS $600 and that just pushed me past my breaking point. Imagine this. Your job is hard and you work hard and you are getting chided by a co-worker who's a temp to "work harder" when you are ALREADY doing that. That coupled with people keep asking me "What did you get for Christmas". NOTHING! I GOT NOTHING! OK!? FFS! And THIS is the fandom we're in now. We USED to be looking out for one another. WE USED TO CARE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER. Now? FUCK no. Unless is someone high profile or someone trying to do something out of the ordinary you are SHIT out of luck trying to get help from people. Think i'm wrong? Look at DreamerHyena fuck look at Fernando's at AC! We raised HOW much to keep their doors open? And it's not like I haven't done anything in this fandom.. bullshit. I had spent hundreds of THOUSANDS of dollars on meals, rooms, items, etc to HELP people. I gave someone their first REAL tail. You don't hear about that shit because it's become the fandom of "what have you done for me lately?" And then you have people in this fandom who ALWAYS have to be in the spotlight GOOD OR BAD. That idiot green wolf comes to mind. If I have to do shit like that to get followers then fuck it i'll delete twitter here and now. And I am not saying EVERYONE did this when I was like this there were a few that asked like DadBodHorse offered me $20.. I didn't take it.. and LEEFOXMCCLOUD05
asked if I was ok.
I wasn't.
I'm not.
I'm stressed. I am stressed because I can't pay bills right now. I am stressed because this job is the HARDEST job i've been in and it feels like ... what I do isn't important. And the support system that I am supposed to have.. the fandom.. is more like "Look at what I got!" rather than "Are you ok?" Look at the tweets I posted over the last 24 hours.. an idiot screaming into the void.
Asking for help.
And getting none.
*wipes eyes*
I don't know what to do anymore. I am doing ALL that I can and it feels like it's not enough. I need help and I am not getting it. Not from the government, not from my job & not from the fandom.
And it hurts. A fandom I have been in and active with almost 30 years I quoted Scrooged yesterday and this quote is me rn: There are people having trouble making their miracle happen. There are people that don't have enough to eat, or people that are cold. You can go out and say hello to these people. You can take an old blanket out of the closet and say "Here!", you can make them a sandwich and say "Oh, by the way, here!"
I am probably going to get backlash for this and frankly IDGAF. I'm done with my rant. I hope you got what you wanted .. because I got nothing.
And side note: I am MORE than just a tiger that likes balloons if people get me presents like that.. I swear to god.. how about ASK? How about ASKING what you need or want instead of assuming? I did that! I asked! Fuck I gave my so called ex-mate a LAPTOP and what did I get for that? I got called as greedy as trump as he PROMISED to get me a flausi deer. Guess what.. didn't happen.
"Johnny? Why are you so angry?"
Lets begin
Lets start a month or so ago where I was employed, kinda happy and I decided to put up a wishmas list. Who knew that shit would go south so quickly? So I lost my job, applied from unemployment and started a new job so everything should be peachy keen right?
Wrong.
Unemployment was certified now going on two weeks and nothing has been done. They say if it goes past that to call them which is impossible because they close at noon and it's nearly impossible to get to a LIVE person on a fifteen minute break. You have a BETTER chance of hitting a fucking LOTTERY than that happening. However, since Christmas was coming I was hoping for a Christmas miracle of someone either getting me something off my wishmas list.. or something else happening like unemployment clearing or getting my $600 from state. None of that happened in fact the OPPOSITE happened where my mate got HIS $600 and that just pushed me past my breaking point. Imagine this. Your job is hard and you work hard and you are getting chided by a co-worker who's a temp to "work harder" when you are ALREADY doing that. That coupled with people keep asking me "What did you get for Christmas". NOTHING! I GOT NOTHING! OK!? FFS! And THIS is the fandom we're in now. We USED to be looking out for one another. WE USED TO CARE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER. Now? FUCK no. Unless is someone high profile or someone trying to do something out of the ordinary you are SHIT out of luck trying to get help from people. Think i'm wrong? Look at DreamerHyena fuck look at Fernando's at AC! We raised HOW much to keep their doors open? And it's not like I haven't done anything in this fandom.. bullshit. I had spent hundreds of THOUSANDS of dollars on meals, rooms, items, etc to HELP people. I gave someone their first REAL tail. You don't hear about that shit because it's become the fandom of "what have you done for me lately?" And then you have people in this fandom who ALWAYS have to be in the spotlight GOOD OR BAD. That idiot green wolf comes to mind. If I have to do shit like that to get followers then fuck it i'll delete twitter here and now. And I am not saying EVERYONE did this when I was like this there were a few that asked like DadBodHorse offered me $20.. I didn't take it.. and LEEFOXMCCLOUD05
asked if I was ok.
I wasn't.
I'm not.
I'm stressed. I am stressed because I can't pay bills right now. I am stressed because this job is the HARDEST job i've been in and it feels like ... what I do isn't important. And the support system that I am supposed to have.. the fandom.. is more like "Look at what I got!" rather than "Are you ok?" Look at the tweets I posted over the last 24 hours.. an idiot screaming into the void.
Asking for help.
And getting none.
*wipes eyes*
I don't know what to do anymore. I am doing ALL that I can and it feels like it's not enough. I need help and I am not getting it. Not from the government, not from my job & not from the fandom.
And it hurts. A fandom I have been in and active with almost 30 years I quoted Scrooged yesterday and this quote is me rn: There are people having trouble making their miracle happen. There are people that don't have enough to eat, or people that are cold. You can go out and say hello to these people. You can take an old blanket out of the closet and say "Here!", you can make them a sandwich and say "Oh, by the way, here!"
I am probably going to get backlash for this and frankly IDGAF. I'm done with my rant. I hope you got what you wanted .. because I got nothing.
And side note: I am MORE than just a tiger that likes balloons if people get me presents like that.. I swear to god.. how about ASK? How about ASKING what you need or want instead of assuming? I did that! I asked! Fuck I gave my so called ex-mate a LAPTOP and what did I get for that? I got called as greedy as trump as he PROMISED to get me a flausi deer. Guess what.. didn't happen.
couger
~couger
I got exactly zero and im very happy with that. Partly because i wanted nothing partly because sandy and myself watched xmas movies all day. I have an outstanding debt owed to me around ten grand by dzi. I dont expect to see that. I have another outstanding bill for 4000 from a guy i did a ton of fab work for. Im currently waiting for that to be paid. Im still doing the finish work on my new shop and im tired... Ive been in this thing called furry scince 90 something... I really have not seen it change. Try to find inner peace. Its tje secret to being happy.
panzier
~panzier
Angry old tiger! Have you had the urge to yell at someone and say 'get off my lawn' yet? I treat charity at the fandom as a pure thing, expect to give and never expect to get back, usually how it works, lucky if someone says thanks! Hang in there!!
