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4 years ago
So I am sure yall were like..
"where did she go again??"
I moved LOL! I not only had cons and holidays.. me and my SO moved to our own apartment :D
I wish it was for good reasons. I won't say tooo much since it is a personal matter but we no longer felt safe living with my mother because my little brother was going.... nuts. Very long story made short as possible... My brother about 7-8 months ago came out to me about wanting to cross dress and I taught him how to do make up, etc.. Well mom wanted to get new carpet and get the walls painted and a whole fight happened between me and him over it. He didn't like how I painted because I bought a paint spray machine that gets it done much quicker meanwhile he wanted to do it with the paint rollers, brushes, etc.. He was doing the ceilings first and one day while mom and him were both gone I decided to go ahead and paint as much as I could of the house to be nice and try to make life easier. This man cried over it and threatened to kill himself because, I fucking kid you not, because I didn't do it right. I got a tiny bit of over spray on the wood of the door frames. My little brother is a grown ass man, hes like 24.
After this me and mom recommended therapy and she even did the calls for him. He decided he no longer wanted to work anymore while he "found himself". We wanted him to go to therapy for his immense anger issues and, if I am to be blunt, he is an absolute asshole. My brother loves to be mean to people under the guise of "just playing around" but can't take anyone else doing anything like that to him back. He has called me lazy, fat, messy, etc.. all in the forms of his "jokes" but I messed with him back one day AFTER one of his "comments" and he blew up, went to his room, slammed the door and cried.
Therapy has not helped because he hasn't mentioned anything about his anger/lashing out to his therapist. Only things he is talking to her about is how sad he is and how he is pretty sure he may be trans. I am all for him being trans, even my mom who is very old and not fond of the idea, said she would still love and accept him if he goes that route. Well his therapist put him on anti depressants... and I guess told him something about having to be accepted the way he is.
He got worse. He is now in this self righteous stage where he thinks he can do anything and people have to accept him for it? he was painting the kitchen because it takes this boy 6 months to paint... and our elder dog who is 14 yo and has a hard time seeing kept almost walking into the paint thingy he put into the middle of the kitchen. He was screaming at this poor dog, like just absolute loudest he could. he was loosing his temper, throwing things around and even nearly threw her. I went in there to suggest he move the paint thingy and, problem solved. Well he blew up at me saying there was no where else to put it. I offered suggestions on places, he told me i was pissing him off, I told him that that made two of us because its hard to sleep when hes screaming at an old ass dog who can't see. well he was clenching his fists and just started yelling and screaming about how he was gonna leave before he hit me and bla bla bla... btw did I tell you he owns many many guns? :D
so a week later we were out of there and moved into a new place LOL. I feel bad for leaving my mom in that situation but she was the one to choose to not kick him out since it is her house. His whole existance has been stressful because he is NEVER not like that. It is legit like walking on eggshells. You basically have to take anything he throws at you verbally and never throw anything back at him. He has random spurts where he is pleasant and tries to act like a nice little brother but he also never says sorry for how he acts. he just acts like it never happened.
I am sure you guys can understand how hard it is to try to work from home in that kind of environment but I stayed for my mom and so I could try to save for a house... But damn am I finally able to sleep lol. I am trying to get all my stuff in order still here but I soon plan to start streaming again and possibly offering those sketch commissions yall loved so much lol
"where did she go again??"
I moved LOL! I not only had cons and holidays.. me and my SO moved to our own apartment :D
I wish it was for good reasons. I won't say tooo much since it is a personal matter but we no longer felt safe living with my mother because my little brother was going.... nuts. Very long story made short as possible... My brother about 7-8 months ago came out to me about wanting to cross dress and I taught him how to do make up, etc.. Well mom wanted to get new carpet and get the walls painted and a whole fight happened between me and him over it. He didn't like how I painted because I bought a paint spray machine that gets it done much quicker meanwhile he wanted to do it with the paint rollers, brushes, etc.. He was doing the ceilings first and one day while mom and him were both gone I decided to go ahead and paint as much as I could of the house to be nice and try to make life easier. This man cried over it and threatened to kill himself because, I fucking kid you not, because I didn't do it right. I got a tiny bit of over spray on the wood of the door frames. My little brother is a grown ass man, hes like 24.
After this me and mom recommended therapy and she even did the calls for him. He decided he no longer wanted to work anymore while he "found himself". We wanted him to go to therapy for his immense anger issues and, if I am to be blunt, he is an absolute asshole. My brother loves to be mean to people under the guise of "just playing around" but can't take anyone else doing anything like that to him back. He has called me lazy, fat, messy, etc.. all in the forms of his "jokes" but I messed with him back one day AFTER one of his "comments" and he blew up, went to his room, slammed the door and cried.
Therapy has not helped because he hasn't mentioned anything about his anger/lashing out to his therapist. Only things he is talking to her about is how sad he is and how he is pretty sure he may be trans. I am all for him being trans, even my mom who is very old and not fond of the idea, said she would still love and accept him if he goes that route. Well his therapist put him on anti depressants... and I guess told him something about having to be accepted the way he is.
He got worse. He is now in this self righteous stage where he thinks he can do anything and people have to accept him for it? he was painting the kitchen because it takes this boy 6 months to paint... and our elder dog who is 14 yo and has a hard time seeing kept almost walking into the paint thingy he put into the middle of the kitchen. He was screaming at this poor dog, like just absolute loudest he could. he was loosing his temper, throwing things around and even nearly threw her. I went in there to suggest he move the paint thingy and, problem solved. Well he blew up at me saying there was no where else to put it. I offered suggestions on places, he told me i was pissing him off, I told him that that made two of us because its hard to sleep when hes screaming at an old ass dog who can't see. well he was clenching his fists and just started yelling and screaming about how he was gonna leave before he hit me and bla bla bla... btw did I tell you he owns many many guns? :D
so a week later we were out of there and moved into a new place LOL. I feel bad for leaving my mom in that situation but she was the one to choose to not kick him out since it is her house. His whole existance has been stressful because he is NEVER not like that. It is legit like walking on eggshells. You basically have to take anything he throws at you verbally and never throw anything back at him. He has random spurts where he is pleasant and tries to act like a nice little brother but he also never says sorry for how he acts. he just acts like it never happened.
I am sure you guys can understand how hard it is to try to work from home in that kind of environment but I stayed for my mom and so I could try to save for a house... But damn am I finally able to sleep lol. I am trying to get all my stuff in order still here but I soon plan to start streaming again and possibly offering those sketch commissions yall loved so much lol
I know how stressful it can be living with a sibling who behaves like that and the toll it can take on your own well-being; hopefully, he starts to open up to his therapist and get the help he needs.
Sorry you understand the situation though. I really would not wish that on anyone