i am so very incredibly busy busy busy

as of november i've been working part time but i also do volunteer work at TWO different places now. i struggle with time management and have not been able to allocate my energy to draw things. going from doing absolutely fuck-all to having only one free day a week is really taking a hit on other things in life like world building for my OCs, exercising, piano practise, and maintaining relationships with friends and family. i'm aiming for getting at least 7 hrs of sleep each night but that's tricky. but hey i have an income now !

HOWEVER. i am currently drawing things - which is a good sign for me because usually i am not drawing things !!!

...although....... i'm still figuring out why drawing can sometime cause me so much emotional distress and anxiety attacks, and then sometimes it's completely normal. my referral for my psychologist ran out just recently but i reckon i'll need to properly work through some things with the therapy skills that i do have on my own to ease my mental anguish when it comes to making my silly drawings. 'cause i WANT to draw SO BADLY. but there are also many things wrong with my brain.

i do not mean for this journal to come across as a vent post btw!! just updating everyone and simply thinking out loud, i guess!!

anyway - happy new year : )