Christmas has always been my favorite part of the year ever since I was a kid, mostly because I always liked getting toys and such as gifts. As I grew older I of course stopped getting toys for Christmas and in the last 16ish years I haven't really gotten anything special. But this year I think I got something very special indeed, I got the gift of insight into who I am.

Now this might sound really cryptic and weird and it's mostly because it is. So I am just gonna come out and say it.

As my gift for Christmas I realized that I am Trans.

Now you might think that is one hell of a thing to realize and the truth is I have pretty much always known but chosen to deny this part of me. Never being happy about being born male but choosing to repress it and be someone everyone else wanted me to be. But I am 26 and I feel that I can't go the rest of my life pretending to be someone I don't wanna be. I do deserve to be happy and to like myself.

So I'm putting this out into the world knowing full well that it could bite me in the ass in any number of ways, but it's worth it if I get to live as who I want to be.

I'd be lying if I said that just putting this out into the world didn't scare the crap out of me. but it's worth it.

So I am heading down a new path, I know that it will be slow at times as I try to work up the courage to keep being me.

Thank you for reading, it felt really good to get this off my chest.