Hello!

I had a really bad depression streak back in August and September; I believed to be because of my ADHD medication.

Because whenever I was on it I had a really bad depression streaks and, I would wake up to not being able to do anything.

I'd come up with ideas in my head of what to do and I would keep scrapping them over and over and over.

And so I decided...

well first of all I found out I found this out when I realized that over the summer I never had any depression streaks; I only had them after the summer ended.

And beyond that, whenever I wasn't taking my medication on weekends or when I was visiting somewhere and I forgot my medication; Or anytime when I was just not taking them for an extended period of time, I was not depressed because I wasn't taking the medication.

I don't recommend this for everyone, but if your medication is causing you severe depression like it was in my case I'd say to talk to your therapist or whoever about getting them switched.

I can't trust that will work for everyone, but this is what it worked for me.

Anyway, I went off them without my doctor knowing, [my doctor still doesn't know because I haven't went to my doctor yet.] but I felt much better, the only problem was that I couldn't do art.

I couldn't do art at all because I never had the motivation, but I never had the depression that I did when on my meds.

I'm finally getting back to the state where I can actually do art and post it

The thing is, I've been doing art off and on throughout the time that I've been absent; It's just now I decided to actually post it again.

I may not post all the time, [it never really has been] but I it's gonna be breaks in between posts.

I will try to get as much of the art I did then up and as much as I can moving on continually.

Anyway I just thought you guys may want to know because I've been absent often on for quite a long time, and I'm glad to be back to see the community and everything.

And I had a big boost on new year's eve. Because I started watching a lot of the furry YouTubers I enjoyed when I posted weekly. [I stopped watching them because back then the Furry Fandom was linked with my art hobby and my depression was taking from that]

I felt that watching them again was the best jump to get back into my art as well

I got back into them because I saw one of the channels I was subscribed to was streaming for new years and I watched them throughout from 11 at night to around 2 or so in the morning.

That was last night.

And I don't know. Something about that; It just kind of brought that final spark back in me that I didn't think I'd have again. And I'm glad it did.

And well I hope to see you guys again soon with more posts and stuff like that.

Yeah, thank you all.

No matter how many people support me I'm just glad there's some people who like my work no matter how small and niche it is.

I'm glad to see you all, and happy new year!



[As a last note just so you know; this was a transcript, but I scrapped the whole audio recording thing so yeah...

I will do a voice reveal on here though it will be some time. If you really want to hear it and see me just go to my tiktok lol.]