Hello!
Bre Bre!
It's been a while hasn't it.
The truth is, I've been having a rough time. I have actually since the last piece of art posted here have made 2 or 3 other official pieces that haven't made their way here and might not. There's been plenty things going on outside in my life, several phases and bouts with depressions and countless times anxiety has taken control of my life.
I'm better now. Or to say at least, I'm past all of the new hurt. And the one who stayed by my side, refused to ever give up on me, constantly talked me back into things when I was at my point of shying away again from everything and everyone. At the point I was about to ruin my life further,  omabeast was there for me. pushed me through thick and thin. Thank you, for everything that you do for me, for talking to me every single day and being the best.
And because of it, I'm here giving you an update of everything important and exciting for my FA. There's one more mention I would love to get out of the way. One of the images I skipped out on posting to FA was of a Wulvrick I drew. I didn't want to post yet ANOTHER cute image with me and Om I drew. But what's important to note is that this Wulvrick I drew is an entirely new OC for me! We finally finished out working all the kinks and designs of them, and the shoutout I want to give is to  darkwufflez who not only helped throw ideas together and I feel made the bulk of the design actually happen, but was also more than kind enough to help get the ideas onto paper as well, when I still feel my worst about my own drawing abilities. If you're reading this, I also cannot thank you enough for all the help with it, and the entire result was a super mood booster I also incredibly needed at the time.
I'd like to be a lot more open to people. My anxiety is terrible, and I am really trying hard every single day to overcome little obstacles. I would love to meet new people and make new friends. This is also the main point I'm making this post. I am trying to break out of this shell I've locked myself so deep in. I've spent the better of the last week working on and making a Discord server! An official one to tie to my FA. It has a main focus on RP, something I personally love to do, with a side functionality focus of housing my art. Things id upload here or plan too, commission handling through Discord which I would probably find easier. The whole nine yards. And I would also like to make this server publicly available here. As it's tied to my FA here, there is also a super heavy focus on weight gain, feederism, and lots of vore themes, all my personal favorite things I'd love nothing but to draw more of or see more of my character. The server also includes a waiver of signature with all this information and more. The goal of the server is to create a place for me that I can feel entirely open with myself and others without any discrimination or stress. Dealing with anxiety is incredibly hard, but if you're looking to join our small community, anyone is happily welcomed! I decided to theme the server around the Tavern that my character owns, in its own confined space. Many don't know about it, but its heavily important to me and gave me good memories in the past, hoping to use that leverage as a place I may find myself more comfortable in, it's the main stage for the server and its theming. A place where also PMD like activities can and may take place once I get some other things in the background turning. If all of this interests any of you, or you'd just like to come to hang out with bre,
The server invite may be found here!
https://discord.gg/7E2myWHKnv
And please take caution approaching with anxiety, but I'm excited to see new people in a place I own.
And with news of a server, yes for everyone who still might be around hanging out on FA, with the duo function of the Discord, I'm planning to get back into art again. I'm currently saving up money at my current job to afford a new art tablet, which will hopefully help me tons in improving my skills and dexterity as an artist over my current cheap tablet that has barely struggled to get me as far as it currently has. Ontop of this, I also plan to be learning and using a better art program. It's no secret, up till now the majority if not all my drawings were done in Adobe Photoshop. Yeah, I'm also entirely aware Illustrator would have been better, but I got much more used to photoshop and latched onto it. Going forward I'd like to use this new tablet I've yet to buy, and stray more away from Photoshop and onto potentially Paint Tool Sai, or if you have any recommendations on better programs, send them my way. Once I dip my paws in the water and find stable footing, I'd like to open up my first batches of commissions again. I've talked about having them before and while I technically did, I never got a single one finished, and I apologize to anyone who asked at such a time. Hoping now, with the vast help Om gives me, and my foot in the door starting this new year off, I may try to push past a lot of my hurts and focus on healing and being better, focus on breaking out of anxiety and interacting with others especially of similar interests, which I have a lot of trouble even finding. And while I always may still have anxiety issues, if I could make new friends to lean on when stressed, I'd have done everything I set out to do and would be happy.
If you made it this far? Thank you for reading all of that! Just throwing my thoughts out at you guys like I usually do. If the server ends up being a bit too much, you all can still enjoy my art from a safe distance here on FA without the interactions or "drama", and I'll try to upload all the important things again I'm sorry! I'm in a lot better a headspace then when I made my last journal entry, and I hope I've reflected that here for anyone who was worried. Thank you all again for following, for liking my art, and for generally being nice and inviting people for the small anxiety filled interactions I have actually had with anyone in comments on this site. Until next time, or maybe till you end up stopping by the Tavern! who knows!