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This new year has been nuts so far
3 years ago
Well, "nuts" isn't exactly what I'd call it, but the beginning of 2022 has not been off to a good start for me.
I found out that I'd gotten the Wu Flu right towards the beginning, and even though it was the Omicron Persei 8 variant or whatever, it's been a rough ordeal; mostly because, when it comes to me and these sorts of things, it's never just something simple and singular. At first, I thought it was just a sinus infection, since I usually get those around winter time, and I hadn't been showing any of the other common symptoms of the thing. After I found out one of my roommates got tested and was positive, I went in to get my own test...and that's when it started really hitting me. Plus, I'd also apparently developed a peptic ulcer along the way, which made the recovery process that much worse because of an overly sensitive stomach lining making it near impossible for me to eat or drink much of anything without setting THAT off, and all the while having immense difficulty falling asleep and staying asleep...which was partly attributed to dehydration. Who'd have thought, eh?
I'm finally starting to feel "better", as I've been able to eat and drink more things (and more frequently), and I haven't been suffering through the symptoms of the other stuff nearly as badly (save for the morning clearing rituals). I still feel them, though; namely the occasional difficulty breathing/strained coughing. I really hope that clears up VERY soon, because it's all been more annoying than anything.
Still, all the while, I've been floating in a weird mental place both online and offline. Maybe it was the lack of energy to get into much social interaction, or maybe it was just the realization that a lot of the people I'd considered friends don't really see me in the same light anymore. Or then again, maybe it's just my depression gripping me at the end of this, just to add insult to injury. Hell, it could be any combination of things. I dunno. I still greatly appreciate the people that check in on me when they can, talk with me, and keep me company. Honestly, I cherish them all, since it feels like there have been fewer of them over time. Otherwise, I tend to feel alone, awkward, and adrift, even in the company of familiar faces/names. Mind you, I've always been a bit of a socially awkward person sometimes, over the years, but then again...who isn't, when it comes to nerd/furry communities like these, eh? Anyone that tries to say otherwise is a fool or a liar.
Anyways, I suppose it helps my improvement just a bit more this year by getting this stuff out there in a way that I can somewhat properly convey without stumbling over my own verbal nervousness or locking up. Sometimes I feel bad about doing that stuff on here when I'd rather be reporting new, good, or interesting things instead...but I think the few people that come floating up to my tiny little island here would understand. Even if nobody else reads this or replies, part of me is okay with that. I mean, it'd certainly be nice to have more people willing to reach out to me from time to time, but...I know that a lot of people are busy these days, or not really feeling as apt to talk as they used to.
Keep the wind beneath your sails out there, and keep floating on. Wherever you're going, you'll get there eventually.
And make sure to drop the anchor every now and then when you see a kind face or someone in need of some company.
I found out that I'd gotten the Wu Flu right towards the beginning, and even though it was the Omicron Persei 8 variant or whatever, it's been a rough ordeal; mostly because, when it comes to me and these sorts of things, it's never just something simple and singular. At first, I thought it was just a sinus infection, since I usually get those around winter time, and I hadn't been showing any of the other common symptoms of the thing. After I found out one of my roommates got tested and was positive, I went in to get my own test...and that's when it started really hitting me. Plus, I'd also apparently developed a peptic ulcer along the way, which made the recovery process that much worse because of an overly sensitive stomach lining making it near impossible for me to eat or drink much of anything without setting THAT off, and all the while having immense difficulty falling asleep and staying asleep...which was partly attributed to dehydration. Who'd have thought, eh?
I'm finally starting to feel "better", as I've been able to eat and drink more things (and more frequently), and I haven't been suffering through the symptoms of the other stuff nearly as badly (save for the morning clearing rituals). I still feel them, though; namely the occasional difficulty breathing/strained coughing. I really hope that clears up VERY soon, because it's all been more annoying than anything.
Still, all the while, I've been floating in a weird mental place both online and offline. Maybe it was the lack of energy to get into much social interaction, or maybe it was just the realization that a lot of the people I'd considered friends don't really see me in the same light anymore. Or then again, maybe it's just my depression gripping me at the end of this, just to add insult to injury. Hell, it could be any combination of things. I dunno. I still greatly appreciate the people that check in on me when they can, talk with me, and keep me company. Honestly, I cherish them all, since it feels like there have been fewer of them over time. Otherwise, I tend to feel alone, awkward, and adrift, even in the company of familiar faces/names. Mind you, I've always been a bit of a socially awkward person sometimes, over the years, but then again...who isn't, when it comes to nerd/furry communities like these, eh? Anyone that tries to say otherwise is a fool or a liar.
Anyways, I suppose it helps my improvement just a bit more this year by getting this stuff out there in a way that I can somewhat properly convey without stumbling over my own verbal nervousness or locking up. Sometimes I feel bad about doing that stuff on here when I'd rather be reporting new, good, or interesting things instead...but I think the few people that come floating up to my tiny little island here would understand. Even if nobody else reads this or replies, part of me is okay with that. I mean, it'd certainly be nice to have more people willing to reach out to me from time to time, but...I know that a lot of people are busy these days, or not really feeling as apt to talk as they used to.
Keep the wind beneath your sails out there, and keep floating on. Wherever you're going, you'll get there eventually.
And make sure to drop the anchor every now and then when you see a kind face or someone in need of some company.
