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Very Slow Art. Health Update
3 years ago
Long story short.
Over the last couple months I have been having such intense, and vivid nightmares that I have been having seizers in my sleep.
As well as aggressive muscle cramping in my limbs.
I am actually currently limping due to the tendons and muscles in my right foot/shin being in so much pain after a series of bad nightmares.
My roommate finally dragged me to the hospital, and it turns out I am about two steps away from a complete mental breakdown.
For those who don't know....I am a paranoid schizophrenic with Multi-Personality Dysphoria, PTSD, and anxiety.
To sum it up.
My mind is a stew of madness constantly.
So it's never wise to leave my mental state unchecked when things like this start to happen.
Granted, I've never tried to harm my roommate during the eleven years that I've known her,
but I have tried to harm others in the past during mental episodes.
So this isn't something we take lightly.
Anyways.
My doctor believes I am suffering from severe emotional and mental fatigue.
As well as a heavy dose of stress mixed in.
We just aren't sure what is the cause of it yet.
He said it could be from all of the trauma my body has endured over the past year {from catching Covid four times, and the flu back to back}, or it could be repressed emotions and blocked out thoughts that I haven't faced yet.
Either way.
He made it very clear that I should take more time to myself,
and focus on things that bring me calmness, and happiness.
I will be seeing him weekly, or even more often than that until we either see improvement, or are able to pinpoint the source of the problem.
But until then I'm afraid my art pending commissions will be coming rather slowly.
I will still try to work on them, since it's mostly tattoo orders at the moment.
But I'm also afraid my mental state might be reflected in the designs.
Which is something no one wants.
I'm going to try to focus primarily on either emotional reflection art {depending on my mood},
or just making art that makes me feel happy/is fun to make.
I will also still try to make adopts in between, and I am still working on a batch now.
But not as often as before.
During this time I will not be taking on any orders from hence forth.
And will not be until I am completely caught up with what I currently owe.
All free art pieces that are currently pending will also be placed on hold just the same as the commission pieces.
I don't wish to possibly ruin any pieces meant for others by possibly mixing in my own personal feelings/mental reflection.
Sorry for the inconvenience this may cause.
But I must look out for myself, and my mental health above all else.
I'm not sure how long this will last,
but I will try to keep everyone updated.
Again, if you're waiting on a commission don't worry.
They will still be finished.
It's just going to take a bit longer than before.
Thank you in advance to everyone who understands,
and have a great night.
Over the last couple months I have been having such intense, and vivid nightmares that I have been having seizers in my sleep.
As well as aggressive muscle cramping in my limbs.
I am actually currently limping due to the tendons and muscles in my right foot/shin being in so much pain after a series of bad nightmares.
My roommate finally dragged me to the hospital, and it turns out I am about two steps away from a complete mental breakdown.
For those who don't know....I am a paranoid schizophrenic with Multi-Personality Dysphoria, PTSD, and anxiety.
To sum it up.
My mind is a stew of madness constantly.
So it's never wise to leave my mental state unchecked when things like this start to happen.
Granted, I've never tried to harm my roommate during the eleven years that I've known her,
but I have tried to harm others in the past during mental episodes.
So this isn't something we take lightly.
Anyways.
My doctor believes I am suffering from severe emotional and mental fatigue.
As well as a heavy dose of stress mixed in.
We just aren't sure what is the cause of it yet.
He said it could be from all of the trauma my body has endured over the past year {from catching Covid four times, and the flu back to back}, or it could be repressed emotions and blocked out thoughts that I haven't faced yet.
Either way.
He made it very clear that I should take more time to myself,
and focus on things that bring me calmness, and happiness.
I will be seeing him weekly, or even more often than that until we either see improvement, or are able to pinpoint the source of the problem.
But until then I'm afraid my art pending commissions will be coming rather slowly.
I will still try to work on them, since it's mostly tattoo orders at the moment.
But I'm also afraid my mental state might be reflected in the designs.
Which is something no one wants.
I'm going to try to focus primarily on either emotional reflection art {depending on my mood},
or just making art that makes me feel happy/is fun to make.
I will also still try to make adopts in between, and I am still working on a batch now.
But not as often as before.
During this time I will not be taking on any orders from hence forth.
And will not be until I am completely caught up with what I currently owe.
All free art pieces that are currently pending will also be placed on hold just the same as the commission pieces.
I don't wish to possibly ruin any pieces meant for others by possibly mixing in my own personal feelings/mental reflection.
Sorry for the inconvenience this may cause.
But I must look out for myself, and my mental health above all else.
I'm not sure how long this will last,
but I will try to keep everyone updated.
Again, if you're waiting on a commission don't worry.
They will still be finished.
It's just going to take a bit longer than before.
Thank you in advance to everyone who understands,
and have a great night.
Thank you for keeping us updated on your health and please take care of yourself. I wish you a fast recovery and to see you doing better soon.