Looking back at my recent, rather sad journals I wanted to oppose them with something brighter, more positive.
I've accepted the way things are now, what has changed and what I lost as a consequence. I'll be working on focusing more on the good aspects of life and my personal progress and make the most of what I have right now. For a long time I thought I was alone, but my friends have shown me that that's not the case - if I just reach out and accept the help that is offered to me instead of trying to handle everyting on my own, like I've been doing up until this point. Which sometimes worked rather well surprisingly, but is not a long term solution.
No doubt, there will still be times when I'll fall back into my old schematics, but I know now what I can try to do if that happens. I'm still not out of the thick of it, that will take weeks, if not months from this point on. But I'm positive that I'll be in a better place eventually, someday.

Well, that is really all I have to say for now... Thank you all for being here and reading this little update. Remember: You're amazing 💙