Why do I feel like bother at times more than a friend? I recently called an old buddy up to ask how he was doing, seems like they didn’t keep my number and well wasn’t really ‘happy’ surprised sounding, okay I guess (?) not long chat was trying to see if they wanted to help me itch some work but it seems everyone has their own things going on, in a way I wish I had more friends about this rinky dink town.

Two more weeks and getting to find out what will happen with my left kidney, I feel better having the stent gone and such, but after the work day my side still hurts badly at times not sure if is more problems developing or just me going to far with physical movement. I’ve lost 30 or so pounds during all of this last 3 months, I’m just wanting to feel okay, and not worrisome about what could or might be happening.

Often enough I just ramble to myself here to keep my sanity, I am happy to see others work here as I don’t really have much to contribute, let alone not drawing in so long or having any effort after the day. Just another day in paradise putting it nicely, let’s hope I am home before 12 tonight, you got this Derek, just have to keep going. Can’t stop now especially with the world holding out hands for money and such. One day this will change I really hope it can, I wouldn’t put
Myself through anymore of this hell if i didn’t believe that.

Let’s just get this done man, tomorrow gonna be here before we know it