does it count if it turned out I'm asexual, and can only have sex with my hand? :P

Are you virgin really? Do you need to masturbate?

I'm curious, I've never met someone who is asexual, furries seem to be sex-crazed.

well, I tried both sides, without it working out... as soon as things get real I lose all interest and sex drive. one could probably say I go limb.
I don't "need" to masturbate, it takes some time, and is more daydreaming than anything else. but at least there is some relief. as I go older there is less and less need for it.

and yes, this fandom IS sex-crazed. I even click away promising artists if there is too much porn and spoogefest and stuff in their gallery... it just doesn't catch enough interest. even more so, in real life the sight of privates irks me out.
I guess this is mother natures way of making sure I don't create offspring... :P

You seem to be asexual or at least demisexual. I feel ya.

yup. :)

So like...not a virgin but...

I've never really been in a relationship. I tried one once but it only lasted for three months because I didn't know what to do and we just weren't connecting. Never really even been on a date. In fact, the only reason I'm not a virgin is because someone took pity on me at a party. That being my first time is not a fact I'm proud of.

I would give up everything to be able to meet someone and connect with them and really make it work. My house, my car, my job, my friends, the fandom...everything. As it is I feel like I'm broken and incomplete. I'm too old now to ever be important to anyone like that. Truthfully, I'm kind of just waiting to die.

I'm not, however, what most would consider an incel. That kind of person is one who puts the blame on others for social failings...and sometimes personal failings too. I've seen people go down that road and I know it doesn't lead anywhere but more bitterness and isolation. I'm lonely very very much, but I refuse to be bitter and hateful about it. I don't blame anyone for it. It just is.

At least you got some action. Better than nothing.

No, that's not really how I feel about it. Maybe back in high school, when I was starting down the incel path, I would have thought that way.

The truth is, anyone can have sex. You can pay for it, or find some nympho in the personals. You'll find it at parties when inhibitions are lowered, or in older couples looking for excitement. If you want it, it's out there. None of it actually requires having a personal connection with someone, or a relationship, and when that isn't there it just feels hollow.

The goal is finding someone who you really connect with. Sex is just a distraction. I think a lot of incels come to a point where they can't make that distinction.