What the hell happened ?

I honestly don't know what to say anymore.
It's as if, whenever i'd like to do personal projects...

(looks around the room)

*sigh* Life happened. And it always does whenever i least want it to.
It's as if i constantly jinx myself when i feel like i have the right moment to actually do stuff, and then boom !

I spent half of 2021 trying to set my own life up, despite the lack of pretty much anything that would help me and...
time just flew away while my mind was with IRL working.

And ugh, it takes so much time to find work when you don't have much experience, and...
(boring adulting thingamajig venting)

Flatsharing's fun and all when you start up from 0, but it quickly becomes less fun when you share a single room with someone, and you're constantly getting interrupted (and i got just the proof of how it makes me feel with this http://blog.idonethis.com/distractions-at-work/) and also, you don't have any privacy, and working all day makes you exhausted, and...

Anyway that was my last few months.
I feeel like it would be better to hold any kinds of promises yet with upcoming ideas...
Oh right ! i'm still alive, that's that, i guess.


Enjoy my stream of random consciousness, i'm trying to see what i could say...
A random fun fact !

I cannot look at my old art.
Whenever i do, i feel kind of embarassed.
I would be lying if i didn't feel like "starting up all over again on a clean slate" every now and then, but as i'm writing this sentence a friend is holding me at gunpoint, blabbering something like "DONTYOUDARETOUCHYOURARTANDLEAVEITALONE"

So i guess it isn't an option.
Gee, thanks, bull boy.


I've also been seeing the shouts on my profile page, and the various comments.
I'll let you know that i appreciate the interest you have in me, and it's kinda touching to know that i do have some people worrying/thinking about me.
I really do.
Thanks for reading this random journal by the way.

I have some COM's to finish, i'll keep y'all updated on it !