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4 years ago
I am so tired, I feel like I want to give up. Everyone has it worse, I'm just being melodramatic or selfish, no one can help me, my issues cause more stress, I cause stress. I'm not worth the time, I just want to be happy, look at myself with pride, now I feel only pity for myself.
I'm trailing, falling behind, no one understands how difficult it is to fix my life from scratch. My parents focus on my brother, anything I know or did I did myself... But now that things are getting worse I can't even learn how to drive consistently. Kicked out of my school system so I had to fill in the blanks myself, had to work hard to get my GED. But I feel like saying this only cements how much of a loser I am, that I'm not trying hard enough. Everything negative that has happened to me has been MY FAULT... And I should just stop crying about it.
Nothing I do matters, nothing I say matters, pretend to be alright, maybe it'll stick.
I'm trailing, falling behind, no one understands how difficult it is to fix my life from scratch. My parents focus on my brother, anything I know or did I did myself... But now that things are getting worse I can't even learn how to drive consistently. Kicked out of my school system so I had to fill in the blanks myself, had to work hard to get my GED. But I feel like saying this only cements how much of a loser I am, that I'm not trying hard enough. Everything negative that has happened to me has been MY FAULT... And I should just stop crying about it.
Nothing I do matters, nothing I say matters, pretend to be alright, maybe it'll stick.
Korros
~korros
It's so weird reading these journals and it's hard to imagine applying your voice to them. I pop onto your YouTube channel now and then because I like the Tales series, changing up the background noise from Markiplier (and the like), and you're just such a goof. Just silly and happy. I hope venting has been helping and you keep on gaming.
