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Where I've been (IMPORTANT UPDATE!)
3 years ago
Been a while since i've posted on here, journals or actual art. I've been swamped with IRL things for months, I've also been dealing with a few mental health issues (some form of depression/mood swings, I'm working on it and its getting better) and so I've had to shift my focus and time away from making art & being involved with the small community i've created. On top of my hectic schedule and current situation; i've lost motivation and creativity for creating artwork. This has come in the form of exhaustion, lack of unique ideas, issues with the hardware/software I use, etc. I have done a few traditional drawings here and there when I have time, they will eventually be posted here and also in my small discord. For those of you who keep up with e621, I have completely abandoned that site so you wont be able to find anything new posted there in the future.
So where does that leave us? Well for one: the YCH raffle must be addressed. I have reached out to those of you who won the raffle, and I still want to keep my promise of eventually completing that for you all. I know time continues to spark doubt on whether or not that has been worked on or canceled or whatnot so I thought it'd be appropriate to address now. That YCH WILL be completed. I cannot promise a specific date or timeframe for when, but it WILL be completed EVENTUALLY. Im grateful for those of you who won being patient and continuing to support my artwork regardless of the wait on the product. I will say this however: it was a FREE reward for those who follow me here on F/a, so while I do value and uphold my promise to complete the artwork, I do not feel its right to force myself into working on it when I'm tired or feeling drained of creativity/motivation.
Now that that's out of the way lets discuss moving forward. Overall, I enjoy art. I enjoy seeing new art especially when its based on niche kinks or has a really interesting concept or exhibition of high skill. I enjoy making art that hits on niche and underappreciated kinks. I also enjoy making art that combines niche fetishes and unique ideas. I know that doing this will likely result in a lot of variation in the kinks and types of art i will make and lead to different sections within the community that follows my artwork that appreciate only a small portion of the art i produce. That makes it sorta difficult when coming up with ideas. I certainly value making art for myself regardless of others' opinions, but i also value making art that others can enjoy. The overlap and lack thereof of fetishes creates a strange situation where i find myself censoring ideas or changing them up so that I don't scare away audiences that may enjoy some of the kinks exhibited in the artwork, but are disgusted by the others. I guess that really leaves me two options: create artwork for my personal enjoyment and completely disregard the fact that some may not enjoy the variety of fetishes in my artwork, OR, create artwork that does not feature any super bizarre or unusual fetishes so that i keep the majority of people who watch me happy.
Commissions/requests/paid work/ect.
As of now, I will NOT be open for commissions. That has not changed and unfortunately i do not see it changing any time in the future. the reason for this?; my hectic schedule and lack of time or creativity to work on art. I do not think its fair to charge money for people to request art that will take an undetermined amount of time to complete. I also fear that i will put a burden on myself to work on my HOBBY as if it were a real job. I have a real job already that i'm happy with and dont need the stress of another on top of it. Requests will stay as is: I dont do free art. I will NOT draw something that is requested by someone 'just because'. I WILL accept ideas, community input, and suggestions when it comes to the kinks and idea featured in my art. Paid work: will remain the same. If i happen to create artwork for a friend as a gift, I do not expect any reciprocation or payment of any kind. If I make something for you and you'd like to show your appreciation we can discuss it between the two of us. I typically will refuse any "tip money" for gifts. If you have any questions about any of these feel free to send me notes or comments on this journal.
TL;DR: Feeling unmotivated and exhausted and unable to work on art at the current time. I want to eventually get back into making art but i am unsure when that will happen. The YCH raffle is still in the works, It has not been canceled and i will uphold my promise to complete it eventually. Commissions remained closed.
I apologize for the long post, but i hope it helps shine some light as to where i've been and what i've been up to. I'm so glad to have a small community on here and a place to post the art that i'm passionate about. I really enjoy creating art, and i love exploring the diverse fetishes that i enjoy through means of artwork. Thank you all for following me here and supporting my art! I'd love to hear from you all and talk about all sorts of nasty and lewd stuff!
stay filthy <3
-BH
So where does that leave us? Well for one: the YCH raffle must be addressed. I have reached out to those of you who won the raffle, and I still want to keep my promise of eventually completing that for you all. I know time continues to spark doubt on whether or not that has been worked on or canceled or whatnot so I thought it'd be appropriate to address now. That YCH WILL be completed. I cannot promise a specific date or timeframe for when, but it WILL be completed EVENTUALLY. Im grateful for those of you who won being patient and continuing to support my artwork regardless of the wait on the product. I will say this however: it was a FREE reward for those who follow me here on F/a, so while I do value and uphold my promise to complete the artwork, I do not feel its right to force myself into working on it when I'm tired or feeling drained of creativity/motivation.
Now that that's out of the way lets discuss moving forward. Overall, I enjoy art. I enjoy seeing new art especially when its based on niche kinks or has a really interesting concept or exhibition of high skill. I enjoy making art that hits on niche and underappreciated kinks. I also enjoy making art that combines niche fetishes and unique ideas. I know that doing this will likely result in a lot of variation in the kinks and types of art i will make and lead to different sections within the community that follows my artwork that appreciate only a small portion of the art i produce. That makes it sorta difficult when coming up with ideas. I certainly value making art for myself regardless of others' opinions, but i also value making art that others can enjoy. The overlap and lack thereof of fetishes creates a strange situation where i find myself censoring ideas or changing them up so that I don't scare away audiences that may enjoy some of the kinks exhibited in the artwork, but are disgusted by the others. I guess that really leaves me two options: create artwork for my personal enjoyment and completely disregard the fact that some may not enjoy the variety of fetishes in my artwork, OR, create artwork that does not feature any super bizarre or unusual fetishes so that i keep the majority of people who watch me happy.
Commissions/requests/paid work/ect.
As of now, I will NOT be open for commissions. That has not changed and unfortunately i do not see it changing any time in the future. the reason for this?; my hectic schedule and lack of time or creativity to work on art. I do not think its fair to charge money for people to request art that will take an undetermined amount of time to complete. I also fear that i will put a burden on myself to work on my HOBBY as if it were a real job. I have a real job already that i'm happy with and dont need the stress of another on top of it. Requests will stay as is: I dont do free art. I will NOT draw something that is requested by someone 'just because'. I WILL accept ideas, community input, and suggestions when it comes to the kinks and idea featured in my art. Paid work: will remain the same. If i happen to create artwork for a friend as a gift, I do not expect any reciprocation or payment of any kind. If I make something for you and you'd like to show your appreciation we can discuss it between the two of us. I typically will refuse any "tip money" for gifts. If you have any questions about any of these feel free to send me notes or comments on this journal.
TL;DR: Feeling unmotivated and exhausted and unable to work on art at the current time. I want to eventually get back into making art but i am unsure when that will happen. The YCH raffle is still in the works, It has not been canceled and i will uphold my promise to complete it eventually. Commissions remained closed.
I apologize for the long post, but i hope it helps shine some light as to where i've been and what i've been up to. I'm so glad to have a small community on here and a place to post the art that i'm passionate about. I really enjoy creating art, and i love exploring the diverse fetishes that i enjoy through means of artwork. Thank you all for following me here and supporting my art! I'd love to hear from you all and talk about all sorts of nasty and lewd stuff!
stay filthy <3
-BH
Dialganite
~leonidas4life
I'm glad to hear that you're still hanging in there. I'm really sorry to hear that you've been dealing with and going through a lot of hectic things. I really hope things will get better for you mentally and physically.
