I'm panicked and terrified. Every day my nerves make my body feel bad: my stomach is spinning, my head hurts, my hands are shaking. I'm scared. I'm afraid for my relatives in Ukraine, for friends who are also there. I'm afraid for my future, because with any body movement I can go to prison for 20 years for not wanting this terrible war! For sympathizing with people from a country suffering at the hands of a deranged degenerate.
I do not know how I will live on, what I will live on. I don't plan to leave the creativity that feeds me, I don't want to stop developing. I DON'T WANT THIS WAR. I AM AGAINST WAR. Any war.
I will give all the orders, I will continue to work, I have no other choice. I want to live, not survive, but the government is doing everything to make anyone suffer except them. We didn't choose it, everything was decided for us...
no matter how pathetic it sounds, but we weren't asked what we want. And they don't listen to us and don't hear us. We're all scared.

Please take care of yourself, take care of your family and friends. Dear Ukrainians, I am sincerely sorry that this happened to you. My husband is Ukrainian and I can't afford to put him at risk, I can't risk his life.
I'm sorry about that...