The orders can wait, you need to focus on yourself, people will understand, you need to only focus on getting yourself better first over anything else, if you're customers can't understand that than they don't care about your well being, the people at the hospital may not look like they want to help, it's mostly cuz they do this type of stuff on a day to day based but doesn't mean they don't want to help, they have to find out what makes you tick first before they can fully help you, I know from experience what it is you're going through and been there before it's been nearly 10 plus years since my last attempt and if you want to make the change for yourself you have to put in the work for it, the people at the hospital can only do so much, you're the only one that can push past the limits

Thank you for your support and understanding, it is very valuable to me! In Russian hospitals, from my own experience, I cannot say that people are friendly, mostly indifferent. But it's better than evil, of course. I don’t know how it will turn out this time, but for now I am being monitored and a new treatment has been prescribed. How did you manage after the last try?

Honestly for me after my last attempt I just thought about what it would be like if I could be happy with myself, I decided that I need to worry about my happiness over everything else, then I found a therapist who actually listens to me, that part really takes a few tries but when you find the right person, they will not only listen to you but work with you as well, plus it's good to find someone who's been where you're at, and doesn't just see you as a pay check

Yes, I agree that the therapist in such matters is very important! One therapist is currently working with me, but what is also very important, it seems to me, is that a person has a desire to be cured and be happy. I'm working on it now, because the situation in Russia has broken me and I can't change anything. To be honest, your words really supported me, because in my environment there are no people who tried to commit suicide and my girlfriend does not understand me .. thank you!!! I hope you never have the thought of trying again <3

I just try to let others know that the stuff you're going through your not alone, and it's also ok to reach out and ask for help, you don't have to keep it bottled up, it's been 12 years since all my issues were resolved, and yes sometimes those feelings do surface and make you miserable, just remember everything you were told to do to be able to push through it, because when you do you'll have more love and respect for yourself

Thank you very much for your support dear! This is really very important to me. I will try to heal and recover!

You're most welcome and good will be waiting for you to come back :3

Oh nooo, I'm so sorry to hear, you're worth so much more than just your job dude! I'm glad you want to get better, that's always the first step. Stay safe!

Thanks a lot!!! It’s just that work for me is one of the key things in life and I can’t imagine myself at work with people where I will have to go. Because of the disorder, I do not work well with people live. I try to hope that the war will end and everything will return to normal. Thanks again!!! ^^

Above all else, find help for yourself. Art can wait. Your life matters.

Thank you!! I try to think so, but so far it doesn’t really work out ._.
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I'm sorry to hear this happened to you, I'm not really sure if anything I can say will help but I hope that you'll feel better soon.

The support I receive here is very important to me! So don't worry, I really appreciate your words, thank you!!!