*Carmen Santiago theme* x3

I've been away from the internet for a while, not just FA. No other reason than I want to focus on reality and the here and the now.

I'm in trauma therapy twice a week now. I'm not going to get into details, but there was a really traumatic event that occurred close to 3 years ago that really, really fucked me up, and the psychological damage has been significant. I've never realized how relatively lucky I've been in my life not to know what actual PTSD really feels like. The struggle for peace is real, and once I find it, I'm never going to let anyone take it from me again. That's a large reason I've been offline. Trying to rewire my brain and stitch myself back together as a person again. My husband, my kids, my friends, and family have been amazingly supportive, so no worries, I'm in good hands. I'll get through this.

Focusing on my all around health is another thing. I've dropped 40 pounds, with a goal of dropping another 20! Physically, I feel better than I did pre-pregnancy!

Also, I have a new job....as a sheep herder! Seriously, I'm not kidding! xD I have a working trained border collie, and we move sheep twice a week down in Massachusetts. I've been focusing on sharpening my stock sense to spread that out to cows, as I've been offered a job opportunity to move cows through the spring and into the fall at a local dairy farm, which is a whole different kind of herding, but my dog definitely has the ability to do it with the right direction!

I still draw, and my son now draws to! Our fridge is covered in stupid Sachi art, both from me and my 5 year old! XD Some things never change, and atleast I have that going for myself!

My goal is to heal myself so I can one day be able to get back to the furry scene without fear, flashbacks, or panic attacks. Perhaps even attend conventions again!

I'll be back!