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Weird feeling.
3 years ago
I have this weird feeling like, something is odd or not right, like I'm missing something? Small things set my depression off, interaction between people, work stress, feeling like I'm losing friends.
Some of my closest friends have moved on to greater things, and in doing so, I don't feel like I have a place in their lives like before, I'm fading, no one to truly confide in. Something is wrong with me, it's a constant pain, anxiety. I hide it from my friends now, no one can help me, no one can support me, I'll sooner or later get left behind, it's an inevitability and I should just get over it. I don't make an impression, my anxiety and social awkwardness stunts my ability to stand out and be worth people's time, I come and go. I highly doubt that ANY of my childhood friends even remember my name.
Everything I do now is for a fleeting chance to feel something other than loneliness, other than this crippling weight on my chest, but it will never go away, I'm just broken, simple as that, not worth anything.
Sorry, my mind is stuck, my life is stagnant and I am powerless, hopeless, useless.
Some of my closest friends have moved on to greater things, and in doing so, I don't feel like I have a place in their lives like before, I'm fading, no one to truly confide in. Something is wrong with me, it's a constant pain, anxiety. I hide it from my friends now, no one can help me, no one can support me, I'll sooner or later get left behind, it's an inevitability and I should just get over it. I don't make an impression, my anxiety and social awkwardness stunts my ability to stand out and be worth people's time, I come and go. I highly doubt that ANY of my childhood friends even remember my name.
Everything I do now is for a fleeting chance to feel something other than loneliness, other than this crippling weight on my chest, but it will never go away, I'm just broken, simple as that, not worth anything.
Sorry, my mind is stuck, my life is stagnant and I am powerless, hopeless, useless.
Aaronleonquinn
~aaronleonquinn
I do that a lot too, a feeling of something weird like you forgot to do something and yet nothing was forgotten. Friends will always come and go from time to time, even if you don't have a place in friends' lives it's always good to know that you're still around. I used to feel like I was just in the way of people succeeding, but I soon realized that I'm not in the way of anything from anyone. Instead I actually have a purpose, to make people feel good about who they are, so they can know their purpose too, even if it takes a long time or they cannot find their purpose.
wesacer
~wesacer
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I truly don't have much of a purpose, most of my support system is gone, I feel pointless, easily forgotten. I am powerless.
