People who know me might already know about this, but a few years back I had a really good friend from the forums/ eventually Discord, PolarizedBear on FAF. At the end of July 2018, he sort of just disappeared, and we never saw sign of him since.

Sometimes I wonder if I should have reached out to him more, told him how much he meant to me. But it's been almost four years, and I guess that means he's probably not coming back. I should probably be over this by now, but it's hard not knowing what happened and still having that part of you hoping they'll show up again.

I'm a different person than I was back then, but I still wish I at least knew what was going on with him. Maybe I could have been there.

He could be okay, he could not be. I don't know and I don't think I will ever know.