I do want to thank all of you who gave me that incredibly large amount of support that I just was not expecting to receive, because, you know, that large amount was never shown before.
As I mentioned, there are many other artists out there who would receive large amounts of support like that, without asking or incident or tragedy... but for me to get that amount of support, it required me to make the equivalent of a suicidal call for help.

If I really deserved it, I should not have needed to do that.
And because of that, getting a lot more praise and support than I thought possible for myself, it actually made me feel bad that things had to go this far for me to do something so desperate. In fact, there were a number of you offended by the fact that I did this.
Not only did I worry every one of you, I even went as far as to pressure and threaten everybody. This is not an act of a good man.
I made all of you do things you did not want to do. I mean, you probably did want to give me compliment, but the way it all came about... unforgivable.

You all have deserved better, but I used you. If you really want to know the truth, I was very heavily already leaning towards wanting to quit, to end all this conflict. But to just leave you all without any kind of input from you would have been unfair to all of you. I wanted you all to have one last word in... and in my anger also thought it to use your last praises as a way to get back at whom I have been blaming after all these years; show that that people really do believe in me.
I set that score goal as an excuse to leave, because based on all previous support I had been given until then, I doubted the goal would ever be reached. I never knew how badly you wanted me to stay.
And because of all that unprecedented support, it would have convinced me to stay... had I not been using you all for my impure reasons.

But what if I stayed? You know the damage that was done will never go away, but the support will fade... and then what? Would I call upon all of you again to help me again? This is not what I want to become, someone who begs for support just because I start feeling bad, possibly over and over again. That is not what you are here to do; you all came to FA to partake in the entertainment that the artists provide, not to console sad people. Your chore to me will come to an end.

It was explained to me that it was actually one of my obsessions that I tried to deny over and over again, which lead to my many problems I had over the years. I was so accused multiple times that the only thing I was ever concerned about was numbers, all the statistical numbers which were used to grade how good an artist may be, which would translate to their perceived popularity. I did not want to depend on these numbers, never. But everything I did so proved to be influenced by those numbers.

If I leave, I will admit, it would be a pain that I will deal with for a long while. Many of you will also be saddened by my departure. But in the long run, this loss will pass. Up in the community level, this will be but a very negligible loss; in fact, my leaving will only be viewed as "just another drama-artist who rage-quit".

If you are asking, what am I going to do now, then? I guess look up the links to my other sites that I have listed on my profile page, look at my contact info. If you are really wondering what I will be doing and care, you will find out.

Good bye, all you good people.