rn i dont know what should i do, i dont have anymotivation left, not to draw, talk be a good friend... anything....
how can i tell and help others to be better when i hate myself and more
im a hipocrite, a selfish bastard
i told and make the promise to not kill myself... but that doesnt mean i wouldnt suffer no more
for the past month ive been so bad, everyday hurts someway, friends, family, life, me...
im sorry for everything
i know people dont care about this things
i just needed to let things out, it wont make things ok
but its the only thing i feel like doing before things get even worse.....
i dunno if i will continue doing this at all, maybe some pics here and there but i dunno that either, a person like me could never handle anything, and all this its just something i cant do
im not like all the other artists here....
im not special
im nobody
and now i realized ive made many many promises i cant stand for...
and im sorry, i am really so fucking sorry for all
i thought i could make it
but
i just
CANT.......