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3 years ago
So, I have never been very active on this account, as I had to deal with creative art block for the longuest time and because doing commissions and NSFW stuff took most of the time I could dedicate to drawing.
That hasn't changed much, but I really, really want to tell some stories I have in mind. Or that could develop there anyway. Art block isn't an actual thing I suffer from: just the belief what I got is not enough, not worth the effort, always something better to be done, more useful, more important. It's just stories in your head, just a child habit, silly dreams, absent-mindness, drawing on the margins. If no money is attached to it, if it doesn't count as a job, what worth does it have?
It used to be my heart, is what it is. Something so scribbled down it's impossible to read.
Conditions are not reunited so that I can achieve a project like a comic, like what I dream of. And perhaps I'm scared that, if I make that into a wish, if I make that into a statement, then it will be failed once and for all. Create an empty gallery, gathering dust, no time. I get disgusted at the pain, at the futility of having one precious thing and letting it rot, because "myself" isn't something I believed in to begin with.
But I'm going to do it anyway, I owe it to the child, to have a space that's just for me. And it's alright if it's just me there.
But yeah, if you want to follow me there, I chose a new artist name:
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/oxiq/
My first, main project is with anthro characters, so I feel it belongs here. Still, I'm not an anthro artist, and on other accounts like Twitter and such, I would like to create other kind of content. Honestly, I would create any kind of characters, draw anything, as long as I can claim them as mine, and I can play some story, invent a world a plot... I'm not even good at it by lack of practice - writing story or worldbuilding is so, so hard. But, it's all I ever wanted.
We'll see what happens. Hopefully, something nice.
That hasn't changed much, but I really, really want to tell some stories I have in mind. Or that could develop there anyway. Art block isn't an actual thing I suffer from: just the belief what I got is not enough, not worth the effort, always something better to be done, more useful, more important. It's just stories in your head, just a child habit, silly dreams, absent-mindness, drawing on the margins. If no money is attached to it, if it doesn't count as a job, what worth does it have?
It used to be my heart, is what it is. Something so scribbled down it's impossible to read.
Conditions are not reunited so that I can achieve a project like a comic, like what I dream of. And perhaps I'm scared that, if I make that into a wish, if I make that into a statement, then it will be failed once and for all. Create an empty gallery, gathering dust, no time. I get disgusted at the pain, at the futility of having one precious thing and letting it rot, because "myself" isn't something I believed in to begin with.
But I'm going to do it anyway, I owe it to the child, to have a space that's just for me. And it's alright if it's just me there.
But yeah, if you want to follow me there, I chose a new artist name:
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/oxiq/
My first, main project is with anthro characters, so I feel it belongs here. Still, I'm not an anthro artist, and on other accounts like Twitter and such, I would like to create other kind of content. Honestly, I would create any kind of characters, draw anything, as long as I can claim them as mine, and I can play some story, invent a world a plot... I'm not even good at it by lack of practice - writing story or worldbuilding is so, so hard. But, it's all I ever wanted.
We'll see what happens. Hopefully, something nice.
