Quick update. Just wanna apologize for lack of activity on here on my part. In truth past month or so has been a bit rough mental health wise.

Depression is something I'm more or less used to by now. I hate the feeling but most times I can deal with it. However in recent times it has turned into this.... unreasonable and directionless sense of rage and hate. To the point where I began to believe my own family and friends did not care about me and only kept me around for some reason or another.

These feelings I know are unfounded and unreasonable, however that doesn't change that when I fell into these states of irritation these feelings of directionless rage would completely overtake me. As such I've been avoiding being online for the most part lately. I'd rather not say or do something in rage that I will regret later when I'm of sound mind.

That said I was able to talk to a doc and got on some new meds. To be honest there are some adverse side effects (mainly hot flashes) however otherwise it is working great. As such gonna try and be active online again. Or at least more active then I have been lately.