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Mother's day Memorial
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Mother's day Memorial
May 8th, 2022 is Mother's day. May 8th is also my mother's birthday. My mother passed away on october 8th, 2021. This will be the first of many of her birthdays and mother's days without her. My relationship with her was not easy. She was an alcoholic.
The reason she drank was many fold, first and foremost she had PTSD from events I will not speak of and know not all the details of. The second was she was in pain constantly. And she had a choice of drinking to seeing out narcotic levels of pain medications.
This put a lot of stress on our relationship, add into the fact that she was physically disabled, and I have no car. I was over there a lot helping take care of her. It was not easy, and while she had improved near the end, it still did not make it any better.
My mom had told me if she was dying, she would rather live two weeks pain free on dangerous levels of medication than two months lingering in a bed dying. She also made me promise when it was her time to go, to let her go. Even with two doctors, and two family members telling me it was time, it made it hard.
I take some comfort in knowing that she is no longer suffering, but still I miss her greatly. And this year it will hit me hard. There are those who have much better and much worse relationships than I have. All I can say is, unless the situation is beyond all reconciliation, Cherise the time you have with your mother, and tell them how much you love them. For I loved my mom so much it hurt.
Rest in Peace Mom.
May 8th, 2022 is Mother's day. May 8th is also my mother's birthday. My mother passed away on october 8th, 2021. This will be the first of many of her birthdays and mother's days without her. My relationship with her was not easy. She was an alcoholic.
The reason she drank was many fold, first and foremost she had PTSD from events I will not speak of and know not all the details of. The second was she was in pain constantly. And she had a choice of drinking to seeing out narcotic levels of pain medications.
This put a lot of stress on our relationship, add into the fact that she was physically disabled, and I have no car. I was over there a lot helping take care of her. It was not easy, and while she had improved near the end, it still did not make it any better.
My mom had told me if she was dying, she would rather live two weeks pain free on dangerous levels of medication than two months lingering in a bed dying. She also made me promise when it was her time to go, to let her go. Even with two doctors, and two family members telling me it was time, it made it hard.
I take some comfort in knowing that she is no longer suffering, but still I miss her greatly. And this year it will hit me hard. There are those who have much better and much worse relationships than I have. All I can say is, unless the situation is beyond all reconciliation, Cherise the time you have with your mother, and tell them how much you love them. For I loved my mom so much it hurt.
Rest in Peace Mom.
