I recently had an EGD done that came back with the possibility of Celiac Disease and my GI doc wants me on the diet but I'm not sure I can do it. I live with two other people who don't have Celiac (My mom and her boyfriend) so there would be a lot of cross contamination and I'd still be sick, no matter what, plus I feel bad for something I probably have and was born with, and I don't want people to be mad at me because I can't eat like them or make a comment about it.

Recently, I've become addicted to food, and just eat mindlessly whenever I watch a movie or something on Youtube because I can't seem to focus on anything else.

I have Autism and feel like a failure because I can't have a job or be like everyone else. I hate putting on weight and always see myself as fat, no matter what I weigh. I've taken to smoking and binging and purging, and also using laxatives to try and keep weight off because I hate my body.

I wish I had a way to kill myself and the will to, but I can't. I have so many health problems and told my mom she should've aborted me.

I currently don't have a counselor or anyone to talk to, so that just makes everything worse and when I try to talk to my mom, there's nothing she can do.

I've reached my breaking point...I need some advice...sorry if this doesn't make sense, I just needed to get it off my chest to anyone who will listen.