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I'm Done.
3 years ago
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If something makes you miserable, eventually you have to stop doing it.
When I first joined as a teenager, I was taken in by the interesting people and characters. (And of course, the porn.) However, over the years I began to see the true nature of the fandom: the sexual deviancy, the never-ending popularity contests, the culture of "call-outs" and all of the fake friendships. Over time, I became a jaded and bitter shell of my former self.
All of this culminated in my visit to FWA 2022. People who I trusted, who I thought loved and cared about me, who I wanted to spend time with... they ghosted me. While it's true that I had some nice experiences there, the betrayals that I experienced there have deeply wounded me. I began to have suicidal thoughts, and mostly stayed in my hotel room.
Now that I have returned home, I realize that the fandom has become a source of toxicity for me. And so, it is with a heavy heart that I must take my leave.
I will leave my FA account active for posterity. (And besides, most of you only care about the art anyway.) I will be deleting my Twitter, and will only allow a select few people to message me on Telegram or Discord. I will, however, be leaving all of my group chats and deleting my own groups.
I regret that I will be living Kintama behind. He was the first truly original character that I ever created, and I was very proud of him. I would also like to apologize to anyone that I have hurt. I know I'm not exactly a good person, but I will soon begin seeing a therapist and improve myself.
Maybe someday, we can meet again. Farewell.
The end of a dream
I leave behind everything
To begin anew.
- HIM Kintama Ryo
When I first joined as a teenager, I was taken in by the interesting people and characters. (And of course, the porn.) However, over the years I began to see the true nature of the fandom: the sexual deviancy, the never-ending popularity contests, the culture of "call-outs" and all of the fake friendships. Over time, I became a jaded and bitter shell of my former self.
All of this culminated in my visit to FWA 2022. People who I trusted, who I thought loved and cared about me, who I wanted to spend time with... they ghosted me. While it's true that I had some nice experiences there, the betrayals that I experienced there have deeply wounded me. I began to have suicidal thoughts, and mostly stayed in my hotel room.
Now that I have returned home, I realize that the fandom has become a source of toxicity for me. And so, it is with a heavy heart that I must take my leave.
I will leave my FA account active for posterity. (And besides, most of you only care about the art anyway.) I will be deleting my Twitter, and will only allow a select few people to message me on Telegram or Discord. I will, however, be leaving all of my group chats and deleting my own groups.
I regret that I will be living Kintama behind. He was the first truly original character that I ever created, and I was very proud of him. I would also like to apologize to anyone that I have hurt. I know I'm not exactly a good person, but I will soon begin seeing a therapist and improve myself.
Maybe someday, we can meet again. Farewell.
The end of a dream
I leave behind everything
To begin anew.
- HIM Kintama Ryo
Take care, Ryo. I hope you’ll be able to better yourself and find peace
I do wish I could've been there to keep you company.
But in the end, you gotta do what will make you happy. And if leaving and getting help is what's best for you... Go for it.
I hope you'll find peace and to better yourself~
If leaving will make you happier, then please do it. I'll miss you, but I trust you're doing what's best for you.
I hope you find the peace you are looking for. Again, I’m sorry, for everything you are going through.
I wish you all the best.
I've struggled with dealing with being ignored or mediocore at best when it comes to recognition and I have tons of followers here yet not even a good portion of them care for my work yet worser artists get more attention.
I do have some good friends to talk to and you're one of them man, you can always talk to me at any time.
Really hope for fortunre to smile upon you man because 2022 was gonna be your year dude and the events you've gone through this year has been tough on you.
In any case it's sad when they have no explanation for their actions and drive you into such terrible thoughts. I am sorry you had to live through that and I hope everything will become better in future for you, no matter if outside of the fandom or not. A fresh start can sometimes be a great help.