Hey y'all, this might be sort of a long update, but I wanted to explain what's been going on in my life the past few years. This isn't a post to try and gain sympathy or anything, I just want to illustrate why I've been so hard to contact recently.

A week ago I lost my cousin. She was my oldest cousin and I looked up to her a lot. Her death was a huge shock to my entire family and I've been struggling to find some normalcy in my life.
This is after a month of being sick on and off.
I am not a strong person, so I get sick often. I am meeting with a specialist later this month and hopefully can get over the chronic fatigue I've had for years. I'm sick of wasting my days sleeping for 16 hours. I'm working to pay my rent and open up my business, but the past couple years have been horrible. I've been just now getting over my battle with alcohol addiction that I've had since 2019. I have a very addictive personality, so I've now moved onto coping with an addiction to weed. It's not as bad for my body (physically speaking), but it is much worse for my mental health. Everyday I feel so horrible I can barely manage to get out of bed.

I have a lot of other problems I could talk about too, but I don't want to make this post too long. I was able to deal with everything well enough till my cousin died.

I suppose the passing of my cousin has really just made me having no shame in posting about my troubles. I am still so stunned and horrified. I can't imagine a life without her in it. I have literally never existed in a world she hasn't been in and now I'm supposed to cope with this new reality? It's like all my struggles over the past few years came crashing down around me, so I might as well be honest about my problems.

I understand my art can be slow to produce, but trust me when I say I never forget about commissions. I have unfinished coms from Anthrocon 2018 that still haunt me, but I have absolutely no way of contacting those people. It makes me feel awful, since my goal is never to ghost people. I know as a commissioner, it is frustrating to not see an artist working on your project.

I guess what I'm saying is please be patient with me. I have been struggling ever since I graduated college. I desperately want to be better, and I am trying hard to do that. I've been through years of psychotherapy and am going to support groups. It is a very slow process, but I am trying. Thank you for understanding, and best wishes to everyone.

-Commander Booty Call