may 15th was a a really bad time for me I never have felt so low to the point of wanting to to take my own life in such a long time the loss of a friend to the drama of others to my family bs and 50 other things led up to this dealing with depression is never easy after years of holding everything down I couldn't do it any more I was at my wits end and I wanted the pain to go away so I googled how many pain meds would take to end it all then grabbed the bottle and I broke down and ran but up to my room to get help so I spent 7 days at a mental hospital to get help I made a lot of friends that I will talk about in a later post that got me thru this hard time in my life and the friends who called me while I was in there as wells as my girlfriends. I hope to never get this low again.