Edit: I've settled on a compromise that doesn't affect my lifestyle as badly, so I'll be able to keep showing up at the times I usually do, thank goodness. I have my younger brother to thank for that. Thank goodness this whole situation is over.

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Here I am at 03:12, seething with anger in bed for the past 4 hours. I've been coerced into staying at my parents' place, the same people who contributed to me being the emotional mess I am. They say they won't repeat past mistakes but I feel like I can't trust them after having trust broken so many times.

I've made a lot of progress on working on my flaws but I still crack every now and then when I am feeling sleepy.

But using mental health as a card to draw me back in is not ok. I am subtly being threatened that if I leave, I will get institutionalized again.

The irony is massive. I just want to go home and be alone and safe again. My older brother panicked and coerced me into staying as well so here I am against my will.

What the hell is even this ridiculous clown show of handling of mental health? They haven't tried obvious things like reassuring me and building up my ego. It's one big sham of people saying they care about you and then using information you confided to them to hurt and complicate your life.



Anyway, I'll do what I can to get things back to normal, I've got some new goodies to post!